One of my friends suggested I come to this board for support, so I've been lurking for a few days. I've found comfort in the words of wisdom I've already found on this board.
I lost my son, Devon Alexander, to placental abruption a week ago today; I was 34w4d pregnant. We found out on August 17 that he was no longer with us, and he was stillborn on August 19. I've made it through the first week of all of this, which has been easier and harder than I thought it would be, but I am still full of ups and downs. It's been a very stressful year - my husband's been deployed, my dad's been deployed, we've had issues with my oldest son - so I absolutely have the guilt that I didn't do enough to lower the stress and protect Devon.
I hope the days get easier, but I know I have to give myself time to grieve. I hope to turn to this board to find a place to go where others [unfortunately] understand what I'm going through, and I'm so sorry for all of those who have experienced losses. I never thought I would go through this, but I'm determined to come out stronger.