Late Term and Child Loss

Intro :-/

Hello ladies,

I've been lurking for a couple weeks now, and finally got the guts to make my intro. I'm Carissa. Here because I lost my first daughter, Patricia Catherine (named after my grandmothers), at 22w6d, August 2nd. We found out at what was supposed to be an anatomy scan that she no longer had a heartbeat.

 Upon her birth, we found she had a very tight nuchal cord her passing is deemed a presumed cord accident. I have 3 step children from my husbands first marriage, who are 16,15, and 11, so they are older, but at times I struggle to be around them.

 I'm having alot of guilt and feeling like I didn't protect my daughter well enough in my womb, even though deep down I know I couldn't have done anything. Her stillbirth was 17 hours, but uncomplicated, so the doctor told us that 3 months is more than ok with him to try again. Right now DH and I feel like in 3 months we will try again, but we will see if that changes when November comes around. Her due date was Nov. 30th, so we will still have that milestone to cross.

 I'm sorry that all of us are here, but glad that we are not alone. 

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Re: Intro :-/

  • I'm so very sorry for the loss of your precious Patricia Catherine.  I'm sorry you're feeling guilty - I wrestled a lot with guilt too and felt like I should have done more to protect my son, even though like you said, I know there isn't anything I could have done.  Unfortunately, knowing that doesn't just make the feelings go away.  I hope you'll find comfort and support on this board.
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  • I'm so sorry for the loss of your daughter Patricia. Guilt is a horrible thing that many of us struggle with. You love your daughter and would've done anything to protect and save her. The feeling that your body betrayed you is a difficult feeling to handle and overcome.

    I'm glad that you have found us but hate to welcome you here considering the circumstances.

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  • Carissa, I am so sorry for the loss of your precious Patricia Catherine. You found an amazing group of women who are very supportive. I fight the guilt daily, although I have been told nothing I did caused our loss.

    Be gentle with yourself and I hope you find peace and comfort during this time.


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    I am so sorry for the loss of your Patricia Catherine. We lost our Patricia Kirsten, named for her great grandmothers, in March of this year.  I think many of us can relate to your guilt, but are you are right in that you could not have done anything. Milestones and due dates are hard, but you will often hear from the ladies on this board that the lead-up to the day is often worse than the day itself. We are here when you need to vent or share whatever you are thinking or feeling with no judgement. I am so sorry to welcome you.

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  • ((((Hugs)))  Patricia Catherine is a beautiful name!  I am so sorry for your loss.  We lost our little boy at 18w to a cord accident as well and found out at a routine appointment he no longer had a heartbeat as well.  

    I have struggled with guilt too.  I was under a lot of stress at the time and feel like I caused him to be too active and get caught up in his cord.  My dr has assured me there is nothing I could have done to cause it but it is hard not to believe that I did. I can relate to how you are feeling!  

    Thinking of you and Patricia!


  • I'm so sorry for the loss of your daughter Patricia.  It's unfortunate that any of us have to be here but I have found a lot of comfort in knowing that I'm not alone too.  ((Hugs))
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    I am so very sorry for you loss of your daughter, Patricia. I hope you find comfort and support here. Big Hugs! 

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