I've been lurking for a couple weeks now, and finally got the guts to make my intro. I'm Carissa. Here because I lost my first daughter, Patricia Catherine (named after my grandmothers), at 22w6d, August 2nd. We found out at what was supposed to be an anatomy scan that she no longer had a heartbeat.
Upon her birth, we found she had a very tight nuchal cord x2..so her passing is deemed a presumed cord accident. I have 3 step children from my husbands first marriage, who are 16,15, and 11, so they are older, but at times I struggle to be around them.
I'm having alot of guilt and feeling like I didn't protect my daughter well enough in my womb, even though deep down I know I couldn't have done anything. Her stillbirth was 17 hours, but uncomplicated, so the doctor told us that 3 months is more than ok with him to try again. Right now DH and I feel like in 3 months we will try again, but we will see if that changes when November comes around. Her due date was Nov. 30th, so we will still have that milestone to cross.
I'm sorry that all of us are here, but glad that we are not alone.