My daughter Kinsley will have been our little angel now on the 28th. I go back to work on the 29th. I have a lot of anxiety and mixed emotions. I am ready to get back into the swing of things and a normal life, but honestly is our life ever going to be normal again?! On top of all these overwhelming feelings, my best friend told me she was pregnant. I am so very happy for them especially because she struggled with infertility for a year. It still hurt so bad for me to hear and brought back to many memories to my early pregnancy stages. I was already having a bad day the day before I found out and that just topped if off. I cried for two days straight. I am feeling better today, however I miss my daughter more than anything in the world and just wish she was here. Every time I see a child or hear a story about a child it makes me so sad and choke up because all those things I wanted for my husband and I with our daughter and now we don't get them. It's just a very hard thing to let go of. I miss her more and more each day, but I try to remain positive and keep my faith and know there was a reason Kisnley is our angel instead of the baby in her crib, its just hard to do.