Not getting any better...sorry for being MIA

delino

Hello you magnificent ladies.  I miss you all very much.  I wish I could say that my bump break has been a time of self reflection and personal growth, but it has not.  I have been crying a lot more than I feel comfortable with.  I feel like I could start crying at the drop of a hat...I hate it.  I know I have so much in my life to be thankful for, and I truly am thankful.  I know that our TTC journey is far from over and we have so much to look forward to, but I keep getting swallowed into this pool of self pity.  I'm fighting to keep from drowning and feel like I'm losing steam. 

Someone shared a powerful saying with me a couple of days ago..."Never look at what you have lost.  Only look at what you have left."  I've been trying to remind myself of this and it certainly helps. 

Anyway, I'm very sorry that I haven't been here for you.  I hope you are all doing well, making progress and have BFP's in your very near future. Much and (((hugs))) to you all.

poohbear033

I am sorry you are having a hard time. We are all here for you.

raashton

I am so sorry to hear that you are still struggling, dear friend!

Know that I think of you often and send out the best vibes I have to you!

Love you much.

RequiresExalted

Sorry you are having such a rough time.

*mucho hugs*  

KGS2003

I have been thinking of you all day.  I'm sorry you are struggling.  I miss you very much and I hope you feel stronger soon. 

HopingforChange

I am so sorry you are struggling, Delino.  ((hugs))

Gregermis

I'm so sorry you are struggling right now HUGE ((((hugs))))  We are here for you lady

hungryhippo

::tackles Delino with the gentlest kind of tackle possible:: I've been thinking about you. That quote is great. I hope that positive focus can help.

I wish there was something I could do. I will say I went to my first support group recently and it felt nice to be face to face with others who "get it".

Oh, maybe also keep track of what's helping you and what's not. My counselor helped me see that I was trying unhelpful coping methods for too long. Now, if something isn't helping I try to recognize that and ditch it as a strategy.

For now and all the time squishy, warm hugs.

amberdt03

I'm sorry it's easy for you. The quote that helped me get through everything was "Don't cry because it's over, and smile because it happened", Dr. Seuss

delino

Thank you ladies.  There's a lot of changes going on in my life and yet nothing is changing.  I know that probably doesn't make sense, but it's the best way I can describe it. 

HH - Thank you for that feedback from your counselor.  I will give that a try.

CashewsMommy

{{{hugs}}}

Smootiepie

*HUGE HUGS*  You know we're here for you, hon.

sammer818

It hurts my heart to hear that you are feeling this way. I'm so sorry. Just remember we are here for you if and when you need us.

Laurakat81

(((HUGS))) I wish I had the right words to make you feel better. Just know we're here for you!

4legsRbest

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***lurking, butting in, sorry ladies...

delino, I think about you everyday and hope you find comfort with all those who love you. You are such a kind soul and I can't imagine where you are emotionally right now and wish I could do something to fix it for you, but I am always here looking for you, thinking about you and praying for your miracle.

 butting out, again, my apologies***

minicheezburg

Don't worry about us honey, take care of yourself and don't forget we are here for YOU! Hugs!!

Rawr08

I think we all know what you are going through.  Sending you tons of love and *hugs*!!!

CNYBride05

Huge, squishy, loving ((hugs)) Delino.  What a difficult and heart breaking place to be.  You are an amazing woman and amazing support on this and TTCAL and we all are here to scoop you up and keep you from drowning.  It's so hard, this ridiculously painful journey through fertility struggles (I hate the word infertility), loss, and the unknown.  You have SO much to look forward to and I love your quote as well as " everything will be alright in the end.  If it's not alright, then it's not the end."  Take the time and steps you need for healing and please don't worry about not being here for people - we all have our times were we need to take a few steps back to regroup, heal, and find ourselves and our partners again.  A few more huge, squishy ((hugs)) and much

MandaS08

I just want to send a HUG your way.

I'm so sorry that you are having such a hard time-and I hope that soon, you will start to feel better.

 

LilMaggs

*massive hugs*