I'm new, obviously. My husband and I just got married last month we're getting a puppy next month and we've been talking more about our future which brings up my little dilema.
I didn't think I'd even to start thinking about little ones until I was 28 or 29 but things are kind of changing. I'm thinking about my husband and how he's turning 29 this year and he wants to start having kids before he's 30. I completely understand this and agree but I'm totally freaked out.
We had our first "when do you want to start trying" conversation last night. Sure, we talked about it before and everything but I was always like YEARS and YEARS from now. I never even tried to imagine it being a real thing. Please don't take this the wrong way but it all just grosses me out big time! Everything about pregnancy and babies makes me almost physically ill. The more I think about it the worse it seems.
I want to get over this and have a baby but I feel like I'm way too immature to have one if this is how I feel. I also feel like where did the time go? There's so much I want to do before we have a kid it just feels too soon. But I also feel like it will always seem too soon ya know? I'm seriously thinking about bringing adoption into the conversation but then I think I'll regret not having a child of our "own".