I have been lurking on here for a few weeks now and I thought it was about time to introduce myself. I am 1 month pp now and have been feeling "down" since I left the hospital. I called my dr this past week to get in. I kept hoping I would feel better and it was just the baby blues, but I don't think it is. I keep having imense fits of guilt and sadness followed by thoughts of not being good enough and being super overwhelmed- I haven't even been alone with my 2 dds yet; my mom moved in for the summer. I had pretty severe postpartum hemorraging in the hospital and lost half of my blood. Bonding with my new LO has been slow going because I have been so out of it from the blood loss, which leads me to feel like my dd doesn't love me or even like me and only comes to me because I am bfing. I also feel like my older DD would rather be with my mom than see me at all. I just want to feel better. I know this isn't me.