I give up

biblionerd

And there we have it.

https://community.thebump.com/cs/ks/forums/67826315/ShowThread.aspx#67826315

 

Twirple

I understand your concern, but It will all work out.  Congratulations.

MrsCali_Bride

Huge hugs coming your way. I know that this isn't what you were wanting right now but one way or the other it will all work out. I'm going to ditto all of the girls on the 2012 board and say to get a digital. I know you said you didnt think it would work this early but I got the positive with the twins on a CBE digital at 9dpo. We'll be here to support you no matter what happens.

neufiesgirl

take a digital for piece of mind!

Oh and keep us posted!

Good Luck

katlizabeth

I'm sorry you didn't get the results you were looking for.

I hope that you can meet with your doctr soon and discuss the safest and best route for you and your family. 

LadyXaverian

I read your whole thread on April '12. Listen- there is no shame in this. Please, do not feel any kind of humiliation. While it is less common today for families to have their children so close together, it was once the norm. You WILL be ok, and what a beautiful family you will have.

My main concern for you is that you get that PPD under control.

((Hugs)) and congratulations.

SweetyPy17

SarahL77:

I read your whole thread on April '12. Listen- there is no shame in this. Please, do not feel any kind of humiliation. While it is less common today for families to have their children so close together, it was once the norm. You WILL be ok, and what a beautiful family you will have.

My main concern for you is that you get that PPD under control.

((Hugs)) and congratulations.

This. Exactly. Hang in there sweetie. It will be ok, just make sure you are taking care of you. 

 ((hugs)) 

mhaas28

I agree with the take a digital test! Please keep us updated. I hope everything works out for the best because you make some cute babies with amazing names And I am sorry about the rude April 11 moms who commented on your April 12 post. Where did they come from?

kje120

The April 2011 moms posting over there are not people on this board anymore. They are "ladies" that are a part of the FB group and obviously someone was lurking and told them about the post.

 Biblio - I'm sorry that you had to deal with any of that, you obviously have a lot on your plate. I hope that everything works out the way that you want. Take care of yourself.  FWIW you do make really cute babies and if you do have a third I am betting that they will have a ball growing up together   

MsAng02

Holee crap!  Hugs, Hugs and Hugs! I have been in the same "place" as you re: the PPD and feeling humiliated. It will pass- IT Will. I know it's hard and you feel like NO one understands because they aren't you. But find a support group thru your dr and go to it. It will help. You have the most beautiful children and while it's very, very overwhelming rightatthissecond- remember to breathe. My DD#2 is the result of Plan B also- I was trying to aim for "avoidance" as opposed to the other "a" word. And I can't imagine it any other way. Please keep us posted and if any of us can help in any way, let us know, And We WILL!!

SittingOnAMtnTop

I hope everything turns out the way you would like it to. (((Hugs)))

GHBEA

My MIL had a child March 27, 1963, March 6, 1964, and April 9, 1965.  She said it was work but when she looks back she is happy the way it all happened.  They went on to have 2 more children in the early 70's.

GL I hope every thing goes well for you. 

MrsRoy07

I'm not around here much anymore, but I just wanted to say I'm thinking of you biblio and I hope everything works out for you!! You can do it- whatever you decide to do, you can do it. 

And I'm really sorry the FB group showed up to attack you, that is really uncool and I hate that they're making a bad name for us April '11 mamas. You don't need to feel bad, you did everything you needed to and you still got pg- it's okay!! Big hugs.  

SandiaPinaMama

Hugs to you Biblio!  I like the quote one of the girls has over on TTGP.  It's from Mother Teresa, and it's some to the effect of "I know that God will not give me more than I can bear.  I just wish he didn't trust me so much."  Any way it goes, I'm sure that it will be okay.  Any decision you make will get support from us here too!  Please be safe...your LOs need you. 

MrsCali_Bride

I know that I replied earlier but I wanted to post again to send you even more love.  I'll be here to support you no matter what the outcome. (((hugs)))

katlizabeth

SweetyPy17:

SarahL77:

I read your whole thread on April '12. Listen- there is no shame in this. Please, do not feel any kind of humiliation. While it is less common today for families to have their children so close together, it was once the norm. You WILL be ok, and what a beautiful family you will have.

My main concern for you is that you get that PPD under control.

((Hugs)) and congratulations.

This. Exactly. Hang in there sweetie. It will be ok, just make sure you are taking care of you. 

 ((hugs)) 

I just read it tonight and I can't believe how negative and bitchy some people are.  You worry about yourself and your family.

bugandbibs

Wow.

I hope you figure out what's best soon.  Hang in there.

biblionerd

Thank you so much for the support ladies. Here is my xp from april 12

The line got darker, frer and digital were plain as day, sore boobs, nausea, all the works. We freaked out obviously, but stayed up late talking things over and realized it could work and we could do it. I called the ob and she said that I would be just fine as long as I had someone to watch the kids if I went on bedrest (which we did) and that they would be extremely proactive about any contractions. We actually started getting really excited. We do want a third, but just weren't sure how our timing would work or if it would end up happening, so we figured what was meant to be would be. And then the tests faded and the line disappeared. So it was apparently a chemical pregnancy. I'm just waiting to start bleeding. I got a beta today and will find that out tomorrow for peace of mind, but the tests are stark white now. 

I feel like after how shocked, bummed, pissed, sad, etc. that I was that I have no right to be sad. It's really hard to process all of the emotions right now. It's just confusing. I did NOT want to be pg, but once I got used to it, it stung to have it taken away. I feel like I asked for it. I practically did. I feel like I wished it away. I know it's for the best and I really KNOW that, but my heart doesn't want to admit it once I got used to having a third. So that's it.  

MrsCali_Bride

Scout2005:

You have every right to be sad. Being shocked doesn't mean you didn't and wouldn't have loved your baby. Loss is loss, and I'm so sorry for yours.

Ditto this.  

Twirple

I'm very sorry that you are going through this.  Of course you are going to be upset at the loss.  I hope you have a chance to get your PPD under control so you are feeling better.  In the mean time, give your two beautiful LO's a big hug.

AnjaO

So sorry, Biblio.  Loss is sad, no matter the circumstances.  I hope you are able take some time and get some help to heal physically and emotionally.

nettie27

Biblio, what an exhausting week you have had.  Every feeling you went through is completely understandable.  I wish you the best. 

LadyXaverian

I am really sorry, Biblio.

SweetyPy17

I'm so, so sorry. I want to jump through this phone and give you a huge hug. You did no such thing on wishing it away. Someone else had other plans. Hugs sweetie.

biblionerd

Thank you guys so much. It really means a lot.

ams8099

SarahL77:

I read your whole thread on April '12. Listen- there is no shame in this. Please, do not feel any kind of humiliation. While it is less common today for families to have their children so close together, it was once the norm. You WILL be ok, and what a beautiful family you will have.

My main concern for you is that you get that PPD under control.

((Hugs)) and congratulations.

This 100%. You are your first priority. {{Hugs}} 

ams8099

ams8099:

SarahL77:

I read your whole thread on April '12. Listen- there is no shame in this. Please, do not feel any kind of humiliation. While it is less common today for families to have their children so close together, it was once the norm. You WILL be ok, and what a beautiful family you will have.

My main concern for you is that you get that PPD under control.

((Hugs)) and congratulations.

This 100%. You are your first priority. {{Hugs}} 

I'm an ass and didn't read it all. I am so sorry. 

lilylow

::hugs::  No matter what you are an amazing mom.