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Going into "lurker mode"

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I just wanted to let you all know I will be mostly lurking for next few weeks.  We are at a standstill on our ttc journey. With 2 years of failed cycles, half of them medicated and 6 IUI's.....I am accepting the fact that a baby may not be in our future.

I hope in no way that I have offended anyone or hurt any feelings with the fact that I do already have children. I never thought I would have to succumb to the fact that I am no longer fertile. It is heartbreaking, gutwreching and plain old unfair.

I wish the best for all of you and pray you all get your take home babies.  I have not given up all hope, but I beleive we are done with fertility treatments. I am going to take some time to enjoy the wonderful family that I do have.  I have been under a great deal of stress (as we all are) for the past several months and it has not been fair to them. So for now, I will still be praying for a LO, but I honestly dont beleive that I will ever be pregnant again. This has not been an easy decision to make, but I do think it is what's best, for my sanity and my bank account.

 You are a strong, caring and most knowledgable group of fantastic women and I thank you from the bottom of my heart for your support. This board is like my "nicotine" but I do need to step back and give myself some breathing room. I have went from feeling like a complete failure as a partner to starting to accept that it just wasnt meant to be, not right now anyway.

Best of luck and much Love,

Tisha.

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  • robbensmrobbensm member
    I know this was not an easy decision for you to come to but I hope it brings you some peace and you will be missed on this board.  Enjoy your family & I wish you all the best (and I'll still keep those fingers crossed that there is one more LO in your future)!
    Me 39 & suspected PCOS, DH 42. Went off BCP when we got married in 11/11, seriously TTC since 3/12.  Six cycles of clomid = BFNs.  Suspected endometriosis & HSG showed both tubes blocked.  Sept 2013 IVF 5D transfer of two perfect embryos = BFN.  Started acupuncture and taking time off to drop some pounds & get healthier before FET in April 2014.
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  • annaliselannalisel member

    Hugs Tisha. I'm sorry that it's come to this for you but I think it is great that you are putting your family first. It takes a strong person to realize they need to make a hard change and then to actually do it.

    May all your dreams by realized.

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  • 10-4LilBuddy10-4LilBuddy member

    What an incredibly hard decision to make.  Best of luck to you and your family.

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  • Mrs.McIrishMrs.McIrish member
    Good luck moving on. It's hard to do.

    TTC #1 since 8/1/10; Me:41 and BRCA1+, DH:46
    DOR (FSH 24.3)/ terrible egg quality ; homozygous MTHFR c677t
    5 IUI's: 2/11 to 6/11 and 1/12= BFN
    OE IVF#1-4 8/11-6/12= all BFN
    DE IVF#1 11/12 bad embryos= BFN
    DE IVF #2 2/13 BFP/Beta hell: m/c 5w6d
    CFNBC 7 months, not doing well; decided on guarantee program at RBA w/frozen DE
    DE IVF #3 1/14  ET 4BB; BFP;M/C 5w1d, incomplete m/c; MVA extraction in ER 7w1d

    DE FET#1 ET 3/1714; BFP, beta 1 3/27= 197, beta 2 3/31= 1586, beta 3 4/7= 13879!!
    First u/s= Twins with HBs at 6w2d! We are Team Pink x 2!!

    K & K born 11/21/14 at 38wks 4 days

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    SAIF/PAIF Welcome


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  • AbeilleAbeille member
    I'm sorry you had to make this choice.  I understand how hard it is b/c it's a choice I may also have to make in the coming months.  I wish you the best as you move forward.
    Me: 38, PCOS/ DH: 37

    DD born 12.21.09, conceived w/ injects and IUI



    TTC#2 since Nov 2011

    BFP 2.6.12 m/c 6w5d | BFP 5.25.12 c/p

    -Back to the RE-

    3 medicated IUIs, all BFN

    -Taking a break from treatment-

    BFP 11.20.12 ~ EDD 7.28.13

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  • jjs2010jjs2010

    Good luck in your future!  It is a tough call that takes real strength

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  • happywifemomofonehappywifemomofone member
    Good luck to you!  I know how hard a toll this can become, and with you well. 
    TTC since 10/09 Me-43 DH-44 RE and testing 10/10-11/10, Recommending IVF 1/11 New RE AMA and DOR-DH low motility IVF #1.1 cancelled 3/11 due to poor response IVF #1.2 May 2011, one perfect 8-cell embryo, 3dt-BFN, IVF #2.1 Converted to IUI d/t poor response. New RE 9/2011. IVF 2.2 completed using HGH,EPP,DHEA, Q-10 and accupuncture. Transferred one 8-cell, grade one embryo on 10/19. BFP 10/31/11 Chemical pregancy on 11/2/11. Started stims for IVF #3, our final try, on 12-2-11. ET on 12/18. Transferred 3 Grade A embryos-BFFN Planning DE IVF, late March/early April- Donors ER expected to be 4/2-4/4. PAIF/SAIF welcome
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  • dhreczuckdhreczuck member
    Good luck with whatever ends up coming next for you, wishing you the best!
    nate and teddy
    Me 41 DH 46  Not actively ttc, surprise BFP on 1/6/11! 4/1/11 m/c our sunshine at 16wks after complications from CVS test. TTC #2 **5th cycle 12/6/11 BFP! Missed m/c at 9 weeks 1/21/12, trisomy 14. Two Chemical PG 3/12&7/12
    ** BFP 8/16/12 beta #1 148! beta#2 407 beta #3 4000 u/s 9.10 1 lovely hb 126, Baby Boy is due 04/28/13!!     Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker

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  • danieleandwaynedanieleandwayne member

    imagePetraStonegirl:
    (((HUGS))) It's been an honor to share the board with you. You are a wonderful woman and deserve all happiness. I truly hope you find it, in whatever form it presents itself.

    All this!  ((hugs))

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    "You have to do your own growing no matter how tall your grandfather was." 
            -- Abraham Lincoln
     

                               Me:39  MH:39 
    DD born 6/1/2013 after 15 months of TTC with one loss.    
    TTC #2: BFP 4/22 but stalled growth and no HB at 9w3d on 5/30        

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  • BeckyP005BeckyP005 member
    Big hugs to you. I am sure that this was a difficult decision. Take care of yourself :)

    ME:46 MH:44 DE IVF 2014
    Met with RE 4/11. 2 IUI's BFN. DE best option. Switched clinics to do "shared" program. Had to retake all tests and a mamm that put me behind and then on a DE waiting list for 12 months. Picked a donor!! (10/13/13) Got matched. Estimated transfer in December. After 2.5 years of patiently waiting I will finally cycle....can hardly believe it. DE cycle got cancelled. One of her tests came back positive.  Waiting for another donor. Donor picked!! (1/18/14)

    DE IVF #1 (4/26) BFN  DE FET #1 (6/4) BFP! Beta 1=339 Beta 2=852 Beta 3=9957 EDD 2/22/15!!


     

     

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