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IVF #1 - Hopes crushed

Just got the call from the RE's office. IVF #1 was a BFFN fail, with an hCG level of <2.

The two embies we had looked so perfect (or as close to it as we could muster), that it's hard for me to imagine what could have happened to them.  It's so incredibly difficult right now for me not to blame myself for not being able to hold onto them just a little bit tighter/longer.  Needless to say, we are devastated, and not really sure where to go or what to do next. :(   But you guys have been a BIG part of my support system, so I wanted to share this post.

Will probably need to be quiet on the boards for a bit after this -- but will still be lurking from time to time to check on everyone here, and cheer you on! Hugs to all.

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Married June 2007, TTC since May 2010. Me=40, age-related infertility, DOR, low prog, low AMH. DH=37,low morph.
IUI#1 (Dec. 2011)=BFN, IUI#2=unexpected early O=TI=BFN. Official IUI#2=BFN.
IUI#3=3/17/12=BFN.
Stims for IVF#1 started 7/6/12. ER done 7/15/12. ICSI and AH. Transferred 2 embies 7/17/12. Stick little ones, stick! Beta 7/30/12=BFN HcG less than 2.
Surprise BFP while deciding next steps! EDD: 5/10/13
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  • I'm so sorry.  ((hugs))
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  • ((hugs)) I'm so sorry to hear this. 
    Me: 37, DH: 35 :: TCC since 2/11 SA: Perfect! CD3  HSG = Blocked Right Tube
    April- Femara 2.5mg + Trigger + IUI = BFN   May- Femara 5mg = CX - No Response on Left = BFN
    June- Femara 7.5mg + Trigger + IUI = BFN  August- Lap & Hysteroscopy = Blocked & Partially Blocked Tubes
    September- Femara 5mg = CX - No Response on Left = BFN  October- 100mg Clomid + Trigger + TI = BFN
    IVF # 1: Stims 11/30 ER 12/12/12! (10R, 10M, 8F, 2T, 6 F) :: Beta #1- 176  c/p @ 4w4d
    FET #1 February 26th :: Lost 4 to Thaw, Transferred 2 = BFFN
    IVF # 2 Stims 5/10 ER 5/21 (15R, 13M, 13F, 2T, 7F- 6d3 & 1d5) :: Beta # 1- 15 c/p @ 4w
    FET #2 Cancelled, Right Tube Developed a Hydro  8/28 Hydro & Scar Tissue Removed  Cleared for FET
    FET #2.2 Scheduled for September 20th
    2 Thawed, 2 Transferred! Beta #1- 96, Beta #2 906! :: EDD June 10th
    2015- 2 failed FET. We are done
    SURPRISE! BFP 8/8/16   EDD 4/1/17

     
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  • I am so very sorry.
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    TTC #1** Went off BCP July 2011

    Me: 31 DH:31


    Jan 2012 Dx PCOS by OB/Gyn


    July 2012 - Tests with RE confirmed PCOS and annovulation

    2 rounds of clomid, 5 IUI's using clomid + injectibles. 

    Surprise BFP while on break cycle due to cysts.  It's a girl! Baby "E" born on Thanksgiving Day 11/28/13


  • MrsCK, I am so so sorry to hear this xo.

     

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    Clomid 50mg,100mg,150mg | Injectables + IUI#1 & IUI#2= BFN
    IVF#1~ 8/2012~ 13 frosties~ BFP! OHSS
    12/4/12 Luke & Kyle born @ 18 weeks
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  • I'm so sorry. :( *hugs*
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    Lap 10/10/12: Scar tissue removed

    Clomid Round 6: 100mg + injects + trigger + IUI #3 = BFP

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  • I'm so sorry.  ((hugs))

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    IUI #3 in December... or not. Surprise BFP on 12/9/12!
    12/10 Beta #1: 25, 12/13 Beta #2: 122, 12/17 Beta #3: 738
    12/20 1st u/s, 12/27 2nd u/s with a heartbeat!, 1/3 3rd u/s & released from RE

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  • I am so sorry honey! Sending you lots and lots of big massive squishy HUGS to you!
    P/SAIF Welcome


    TTC Since 7/2010


    TTC with charting, OPK's, etc since 8/2010


    RE Appointment 9/9/11 = Unexplained IF. All tests for DH and I normal


    2 Clomid + TI cycles = BFN


    1 Clomid + IUI = BFN


    1 Clomid + Injects + IUI = BFN


    IVF #1 take 1 begins 8/6/12.


    Surgery to remove uterine polyp 8/28/12 All clear!


    Break due to Gallbladder Surgery 9/13/12.


    IVF #1 Take 2 begins 9/7/12, Lupron begins 9/23/12
    Stims begin 10/1/12 (150 Units of Bravelle and 75 Units of Menopur)


    ER 10/15 12 eggs retreived, 12 mature and 8 fertilized on their own!


    ET 10/20/12 Transferred 2 embies, 1 good and 1 fair extended blasts. 3 frosties waiting for us.


    Beta #1 10/31 = 756 (11dp5dt)


    Beta #2 11/2 = 1,310 (13dp5dt)


    Beta #3 11/5 = 4,158 (16dp5dt)


    First u/s 11/12 @ 6w = TWINS!! Both with heartbeats.


    Next u/s 11/21 @ 7w3d = Both with heartbeats of 162 and 165.


    Graduation Day 11/30 = Both babies looking perfect with heartbeats of 182 each.










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  • I'm so sorry :(  Good luck on deciding your next step.
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    I'm so, so sorry.  

    TTC with MFI, PCOS, and endometriosis since February 2010
    BFP January 20,2012, Loss confirmed January 22,2012
    March-August 2012: Various medicated/IUI cycles, all BFN
    Laparoscopy/Hysteroscopy October 2012: Fall Cleaning, Uterus Edition
    BFP 2-17-12 @12DPO Beta#1: 256 Beta#2: 1061
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  • I'm sorry. It must be so difficult to go through IVF, only to have it fail.. :(
    Patiently waiting for our 1st since 9/2010.
    Dealing with MFI, good count, good motility, 3% morph-HSG all clear, all other test results came back normal, IUI is our next step
    May 2012- Clomid 50mg + IUI = BFN
    June- Cycle Break
    July- Forced cycle break due to cysts
    August- Femara, Trigger, IUI#2= ?
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  • Oh no, I'm so sorry! You will be in my T&P.

    ~TTC#1 Since July 2011~ 
    Dx: Fibroids & Tubal Infertility
                                                        9/12 -IVF#1 =BFN; 5/14 -IVF#2=BFP:-) EDD 2.19.2015                                                

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  • Thanks.  You guys give me strength.
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    Married June 2007, TTC since May 2010. Me=40, age-related infertility, DOR, low prog, low AMH. DH=37,low morph.
    IUI#1 (Dec. 2011)=BFN, IUI#2=unexpected early O=TI=BFN. Official IUI#2=BFN.
    IUI#3=3/17/12=BFN.
    Stims for IVF#1 started 7/6/12. ER done 7/15/12. ICSI and AH. Transferred 2 embies 7/17/12. Stick little ones, stick! Beta 7/30/12=BFN HcG less than 2.
    Surprise BFP while deciding next steps! EDD: 5/10/13
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  • I am so sorry!!
    2 year TTC journey with successful IVF in Nov 2012- B/G Twins!
    Baby Boy diagnosed with omphalocele and diaphragmatic hernia
    Born at 32 weeks due to PROM.  Emergency c-section due to prolapsed cord.
    Said Goodbye to our sweet Bennett after 5 short hours.  
    Spent 35 days in the NICU with our little girl.

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  • I'm so sorry.
    TTC from May 2011 to Jan 2013. Due 9/11/13
  • I'm so sorry. I just had a chemical pregnancy with my first IVF, so I can sympathize. It's hit me like a ton of bricks. Take care of yourself. 
    Age 37
    TTC Since August 2010
    Husband SA Feb. 2011 normal
    HSG Feb. 2011, clear
    Clomid April, May & June 2011, unmonitored
    First visit to RE July 2011
    Sonohystogram Aug 2011 normal
    Sept 2011 AMH test in normal range
    Sept 2011 Clomid cycle, monitored + TI = BFN
    Oct 2011 Clomid + IUI = BFN
    Long break -- tried on our own
    IVF #1 June/July 2012 = 4 retrieved, 2 fertilized and transferred, BFP, chemical
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  • I'm so sorry.Sad
    BFP #1 9/7/12. Loved for a month, and lost 10/11/12.
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  • Im so very sorry...
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    So sorry MrsCK, many hugs to you.  Having an ivf cycle end in a bfn is devastating to say the least.  Give yourself time to grieve and be shell-shocked.  Best of luck to you.
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    1/2011 lap to remove blocked right tube and adhesions, left tube looks good!


    IUI #1 6/2011 - BFN


    Forced breaks July - Sept: cysts and eggs on wrong side


    IUI#2 10/2011 - BFN

    IUI#3 11/2011 - BFN

    IUI#4 w/ injects 2/2012 - BFFN

    IVF #1 5/2012 - cancelled due to low response

    IVF #1.2 6/2012 - ER 6/25, ET 6/30 - BFN

    FET #1 8/2012 - BFP!!!


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  • So sorry MrsCK

    Me: 27 DH: 32
    TTC since 10/2011
    Off BCP 10/2011
    Cycle 1:110 days-Provera ended
    Cycle 2:57 days-natural AF
    Cycle 3:96 days-Provera ended to begin first treatment cycle
    7/12:SA-"Normal" Count:47 million Motility:75% Morph:3%
    7/12: Provera+50mg Clomid+Ovidrel+TI+Progesterone=BFN
    8/12:50mg Clomid+Ovidrel+TI+Progesterone=???

  • Im so sorry. Thinking of you as you grieve these embies and hoping you find peace as you move forward (((giant hugs)))
  • So, so sorry (((hugs)))

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