Just got the call from the RE's office. IVF #1 was a BFFN fail, with an hCG level of <2.
The two embies we had looked so perfect (or as close to it as we could muster), that it's hard for me to imagine what could have happened to them. It's so incredibly difficult right now for me not to blame myself for not being able to hold onto them just a little bit tighter/longer. Needless to say, we are devastated, and not really sure where to go or what to do next. But you guys have been a BIG part of my support system, so I wanted to share this post.
Will probably need to be quiet on the boards for a bit after this -- but will still be lurking from time to time to check on everyone here, and cheer you on! Hugs to all.