just needed to share...

egsulaiman

So as some of you know, I'd been dealing with, and still dealing with PPD and PPA. I have recently started a treatment plan, and I started some medication to help me get back to where I was before. I have to say that I feel really good. For the last almost 7 weeks I was totally fogged, I felt as though I had made the biggest mistake of my life. I couldnt stop crying I was begging my husband to stay home from work because I didnt want to be alone with our daughter because I was so caught up in anxiety, and I even wanted to run away. 

Tonight, for the first time, my home is quiet...  I walk into my bedroom to check on my daughter and this feeling of peace comes over me. I cant explain it, and I'm sure I still have a long way to go to beat this, but for the first time I feel as though everything is going to be okay, and I cant wait to explore the world along side my daughter. 

 

Please please please, if you are feeling at all like you have any kind of PPD or PPA or any type of  postpartum mental illness, get help ASAP because the sooner you get help, the sooner you can enjoy this amazing gift thats been given to you.  Dont feel ashamed or that your the only one, because your not. 

ReginaLV

Depression is no joke, it is incredibly hard to deal with and can consume your entire being. I'm glad you got some help and are feeling better, you deserve to relish and enjoy this time with LO! I myself have dealt with anxiety and depression for most of my life, so I know how serious and detrimental it can be. So far I've been good, but it is definitely something I am very vigilant about.

TnG05

I'm so happy for you. 

BR

I am so sorry you are dealing with this but I am glad you got help.  I hope you continue to feel better and thank you for bringing awareness about this issue.

JessieCupcake

I'm so glad things are getting better for you. I was on an antidepressant but I stopped when I got pregnant. Now I'm thinking I may need to go back on it but I'm not sure. I recently went back to therapy so I'm trying that first.

gatsbygirl

Thank you for sharing this. I completely second everything you've said. I struggled with PPD when my daughter was born, although I refused to admit it to anyone, including myself. I never got the help I needed because I was too afraid to admit I was depressed for fear that someone would take her from me. Stupid, I know, but that's what the depression and anxiety did to my thoughts.

As a result, I never bonded properly with DD until she was 5 months old. But the depression continued on and off until she was 2 years old. It prevented me from having a close relationship with her that continues even now (she's 3 1/2). Eventually, when I found out I was pregnant with DS, I sought help from a support group, which finally helped me get through it. Unfortunately, I missed out on so much with my daughter during her first two years.

I agree with the others. Please, please, if you think you might be suffering from PPD, don't ignore it, dismiss it or think you can get through it on your own. It's nothing to be ashamed of. Don't wait to get help like I did.

sam19

That is great. I'm so proud of you for seeking out the help you need. I know how scary dealing with PPD can be because I had it really bad with my first. You are doing an awesome job! Keep it up.

rissa_n

Glad you're doing better, and thanks for sharing your story.  Hopefully it will help others who might be experiencing PPD know that there is help out there.  Hugs!

notfrancie

rissa_n:

Glad you're doing better, and thanks for sharing your story.  Hopefully it will help others who might be experiencing PPD know that there is help out there.  Hugs!

 

This.  I am proud of you!  Way to take charge of your own life!  Wishing you continued peace and happiness.