This week SUCKS!!! A bit long.

Williamandshawnna

This week is just full of numbers and days. Those numbers and days that we all count and keep track of, and know very well that there are weeks when they meet up for a perfect storm of memories. That is this week for me! Ughh.

Monday was one month since the loss of our sons, it was not a pretty day. My husband and I kinda just walked around in a fog. I did not go and run errands for the fear that if I did, I would have stopped by a liquor store, bought and finished a bottle before I got home. No, I am not at all a heavy drinker and do not use alcohol to medicate, but that is the feeling I had.

Tuesday, the semi good highlight I guess of the week thus far. 2 weeks ago we started seeing a therapist, one that specializes in grief counseling as well as IVF. So double score, I think we will be seeing her for a long time. She has helped us open up and think of things in different ways. Much to my amazement, my husband TALKS, the normal, quiet guy in the room actually talks the most during our 2 sessions. Not complaining at all I am actually very happy he is talking this out. So any of you out there tossing this idea around, my suggestion is to try it out. Look for someone that fits you, do your research into their field specialty, that's the most important part because if you don't you will either get frustrated and stop going or end up seeing and trying out a whole lot of people.

Today, oh how today is such a HUGE day, today was the mile stone we all shoot for, 24 weeks, viability, the day that we wanted to so badly see come and go while in the hospital. We wanted to see it come because we knew we had a chance if it did, we wanted to see it go because we were determined to get our 3 angels to at least 30 weeks. On top of this we saw our MFM for a follow up on how to approach our "next time". We LOVE our MFM, he is so full of hope and is real at the same time. He brought back so many emotions.

Thank you ladies for letting me vent.

lmielocl1

(((Hugs))) to you!!  Today was 6 weeks for us since we found out our son passed away and also, I would have too been 24 weeks along this week.  I am sorry it is such a difficult week for you!!  I completely understand!  I am so glad that the therapy session helped and that your MFM provided you with hope.  It does bring back a lot of emotions but please let yourself let the emotions out.  It is good for you!  I had a consult with my RE this week to come up with a plan too and it was very emotionally remembering that the last time I was there, I was pregnant.  But he too was fabulous and he even has gotten me to realize I need to see a therapist!  

Thinking of you and sending much love to you!

- Leslie

~ Mommy to Aaron, 21 months and to our angel, Ethan James, born sleeping at 18w on 6/15/12 

Williamandshawnna

Leslie,

Thank you for your kind words. Keeping you in my thoughts during your journey too.

~~~HUGS~~~

-Shawnna

jbranden12

I'm sorry, milestone dates are hard. I'm glad you and your DH have been helped by going to therapy! (HUGS)