Finally- and oh yeah it was gross but it was cool

nurrieum · July 2012

Well Friday at 1:21pm I actually gave birth! It wasn't the natural way I had planned. Anyone curious about my birth story- it's on the birthstorie's board. I felt I'd been pretty sanctimonious about how I was going to do this naturally, I caved and took the drugs, however at least admitted my hypocrisy LOL. I still think natural is the best way and anyone who can do it has my utmost respect. I wasn't able to push through the pain. I think had I better prepared myself with some further technics like bradley or hypnobabies it may have gone differently. I wasn't sure what to expect- I did concentrated relaxing- honestly it worked well- I just wanted to be a sissy and my resolve caved. I wasn't pressured by anyone either way and am still happy with the birth experience I had.

I regret not having a hand mirror- which is totally odd because I was NOT wanting anything to do with it prior, and I wasn't really concentrated on it during pushing but looking back I wish I could have watched my child enter the world. I didn't want pictures and there wouldn't have been a person available to take them (they didn't have stirrups so my birth team held my legs).

Anyway- having gone through the birthing experience I do honestly think it's an incredible rather beautiful thing. All the blood and gooshy feelings were icky but at the same time- that is was lead to this incredible being who has just captured me.

You think you have a clue about what it's going to be like- and then you find out Nope. Not. At. All.

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