Feels a little strange...

a&aw12707

I was so angry at first about having to go through all of the post-partum stuff (bleeding, hot flashes, etc). Now that my bleeding has all but stopped, I can't help but think I'm losing my final physical link.

Williamandshawnna

I feel the same way. At first it was a reminder of our loss and now it seems as things are going away this is building on my fear of forgetting things. I have stopped bleeding, and now my milk is almost all dried up. I understand your feeling of losing that physical connection. It just sucks either way you look at it.

lrichmond86

I have to admit that I wasn't upset when my bleeding stopped, however I do understand wanting that physical link to my baby boy.  While most women work hard to lose their baby weight and get rid of stretch marks, I hung onto mine for as long as I could!  And I love my stretch marks... they're proof that he was really here.  Hang in there... the pain of losing our babies never goes away, but it does get easier to live with.  Lots of hugs to you both!

jbranden12

I bled for a long time so I was ready to be done with that, but I felt like that about my milk. For weeks after, I would try to hand express some every once in a while. It gave me a physical reminder that she was here, because it was something I couldn't do before.  

 

 

 

dandywarhol

I know what you mean but like jbranden12, for me it was the milk. As painful as it was I wasn't super aggressive about having my milk dry up. I was so looking forward to nursing my daughter that I wanted to feel what it was like to have the weight of the milk in my breast. When it finally dried up I was once again heartbroken by the physical reminder that I was no longer pregnant and I didn't have a live baby to show for it.  {{hugs}}

weddedwife

I felt the same way. I lost the weight super fast (I had a postpartum hemorrhage and almost required a transfusion so that contributed). Some people even said I looked good and that just made me so sad. I would've rather been big and fat and still pregnant.

Have you ever read this article? It's comforting to me. It's about how our babies' cells live on inside our bodies forever. So you will never truly lose your physical link!

https://boingboing.net/2012/01/03/cells.html

Bayberry12

I know how you feel.  Our physical recovery is made so complicated by all of our grief.  Once the bleeding stops, and the milk dries up, and swelling goes down, physically we are "back to normal" but we are still left with all this pain.