My mother was diagnosed with Ovarian Cancer last year when LO was 8 weeks old. I had so much to learn and do being a first time parent that I didn?t fully process the extent of my mom?s situation. Mom had a hysterectomy and all was well. Jump forward to this past May when mom was diagnosed with breast cancer. With things going well and a lot more in order at home, this hit me really hard. On top of that my father lost his job. In June, mom had her surgery and I was there for my dad (who was very positive up to this moment) during the 4 hour operation and 4 hour recovery process. In reality it was a blessing that dad didn?t have a job to return to because my mom was told she would need radiation every day for 4-6 weeks and that it effected people differently so to be aware. Things were going along as usually, until the beginning of July when mom went back to the doctors for a mammogram recheck and was told that she still has cancer cells. This is a real blow since she started the recovery process and now has to delay radiation to have another surgery. Today is her surgery. Doctors expect her surgery to go well and the radiation will hopefully ensure this won't happen again.
Taking this all in has me thinking about how LO?s grandparents will someday not be here. DH was aware from day 1 (12 years ago when I met him) how I never wanted to have an only child (he is but I have a brother 14 months younger) and that I didn?t want a huge age gap between them. I?m only 39 and I know I still have plenty of time but with all this going on, it has me thinking about how little time I have. I?m afraid if I broach the subject now with DH that he will think I?m just feeling insecure about my mom and that LO is only 14 months that we?re just getting into a routine why add more to the mix. It?s true; because of my mom?s illness it has me thinking about my life and our family?s future but it?s not the only reason?Any advice on talking with DH about having another LO without sounding like I?m using the above as an excuse but a valid reason for why I feel the way I do.