Edit: Kind of got an answer today and I caved

asglover514

Today was my 6 week and all my test results are back. 20 million tubes. As of now we're thinking it was cause by the umbilical cord. The way the Dr explained the cord should go directly in the middle of the placenta and mine was lining it, exposed and vulnerable. I also tested high for clots which were found in the cord and placenta as well as a bleed between the wall and placenta. Aaron was fine the day before and I can't help but think if it hadn't been memorial day I woud've had an appointment and maybe things would be different. All the test and all they can say is "We think it was this, but can't be sure" Which as we know doesn't give much peace of mind, if any.

 

Edit: Phone bumping sucks, my phone is stupid. Sorry for the weird formatting and such. 

There was no trigger or reason for my break down. I just started crying. 

Edit: I broke down. I've cried the last 30 minutes straight, the longest I've cried thus far. It was an ugly cry too, with runny nose and closed throat so all sound that escaped sounded like a yelping dog. Bleh, I thought I was doing good  

lmielocl1

I am so sorry that they were not able to give you a concrete answer.  I know it is so hard. I too question myself all the time but my dr has tried to reassure me there isn't anything I could have done differently to prevent what happened!  You are not alone in wondering!  Many (((Hugs))) to you!!

Leslie

 

dandywarhol

I'm sorry that you didn't get the definitive answers you were hoping for. I'm not sure if it is better to know or not. {{hugs}}

magdalina.h

My answer was we have no idea, none of your results came back off. It was just a fluke. I had no clots, cord was positioned correctly. It just stopped working.

jbranden12

I'm sorry. No answers here easier. Judging from the experiences of others here, I don't think having answers makes it any easier, seeing as we'll never know why it had to happen to our babies. Sometimes we need a good cry to continue grieving. ((hugs))

asglover514

On the bright side my photo album came in from Shutterfly today. It's perfect