Finally Home

indika236 · July 2012

After what seemed like a million nights in the hospital, I am finally home. The surgery was a success for the most part- I can walk again with a walker and have bladder function back The downside is I only have 20% feeling in my left leg below my knee through my foot. My neurosurgeon says there is a 50/50 chance the nerves will regenerate and "wake" up. I can't lay flat or sit for more than an hour at a time, but we hope that will improve with time.

Penelope is still seizure free and is doing better every day. She is happy to have her mama home, but does not understand why I cannot pick her up. Everytime she reaches for me, it breaks my heart.

The last two weeks have kicked my ass physically and emotionally. In the grand scheme of things, there is lots to be thankful for. But there are little things like having to cancel our first family beach vacation and not having the "perfect" first birthday party next weekend. I am trying hard to stay positive, but I have found myself just tyring to digest everything that has happened and breaking down. My family has flown out from PA to stay with us for a few weeks while I recover and then I will hire a nanny to come and help me out in the evenings while my husband works.

Thanks again to all of you for your kind thoughts and prayers. My entire world has been shaken and I appreciate being able to get some of my frustrations out here.

MOONGIRL2467 · July 2012

I wasn't aware of your condition but glad you and P are both home and safe! T& P for a speedy recovery!

aeklotz · July 2012

I am sending T&P and good luck vibes because my goodness girl you need need them! I'm happy to hear that you are at least home.

You can throw her a crazy awesome 2nd birthday that she will have way more fun at anyways, and at least she wont remember not being held. Take care of yourself right now so that you can be there for her later when she remembers.

We are always here to vent to.