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justellabella · July 2012

Hi, 4 months ago I gave birth by emergency classic c-section due to a complete placental abrupture,My son Logan was born at 26 weeks and died of a brain bleed The very next day. I was in a pretty bad state in ICU so never got the chance to see him alive, even so he is the light of my life and a piece of me died with him that day (I know you all will understand) currently all my close friends (except maybe 2) either just gave birth or are pg, IM NOT EXAGERATING, my bff is having twins nxt month and I just survived 5 consequetive baby showers, I figured if there was any place my feelings would be understood, this would be it

tubbsy32 · July 2012

I am so sorry for the loss of your baby boy Logan. I def understand how you are feeling, we all do. I feel the same way as you do, as piece of me died when we lost Jacob and I will never be the same person. It's hard to realize that, sometimes I look in the mirror and don't even recognize myself and think "is this really my life?" I wish none of us were here, but I hope you find support here. I am so sorry. ((hugs))

philfemgal · July 2012

I am so, so sorry about your losing Logan.

It does seem like after a loss it's rubbing salt in the wound that one has to watch everyone else have health pregnancies and welcome new babies. 5 baby showers--ugh! I give you a lot of credit for being able to get through those. I think it would be 100% understandable if you could not do it no matter how much you love your pregnant friends. We only have a few pregnancies/new babies happening around us--only one case involving a very close friend--and that is hard to deal with.

jbranden12 · July 2012

I am so sorry for the loss of your Logan. I am amazed that you have been able to hold it together despite all of the baby events going around you. I still cannot handle it and I'm not sure if I will be able to anytime soon. I am sorry that you have to join us here.

cherrycobbler · July 2012

I'm so sorry for the loss of your sweet Logan. I had 5 friends that were due within a month before my due date and I went first at 33wks. It was torture having them all go through labor and have healthy babies (all boys too) and having to go see them all. I hope you are able to find some comfort here with us. Much love and (hugs) to you and your family.

tuscanbride2007 · July 2012

I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet boy Logan. I hate to welcome you here, but these women are amazing and very supportive. I understand that a piece of you died that day. I feel the same way. My life will never be complete because I am missing such an important piece.

((hugs))

Bayberry12 · July 2012

I am so sorry for the loss of your son Logan, it breaks my heart that you have to be here.

justellabella:
even so he is the light of my life and a piece of me died with him that day

I completely understand. It really is like a piece of ourselves died when we lost our little ones. I often have an empty, longing feeling and I'm not sure that I will ever feel complete again.

I hope your friends can be supportive and sensitive to your feelings.