Hi

Fletcha

My name is Becky and I lost my son Milo 6 days ago in a car accident. I've lurked here before, I guess because I'm morbid, but never in a million years thought I'd "belong" here. Sorry about my siggy... I haven't had the heart to mess with it yet.

I don't really know what to say right now, except I am still very much in shock and pretty numb. We will be burying him on tuesday and I have a feeling that will be the beginning of reality hitting. I'm dreading it. I don't want to face reality. I want this to be a horrible mistake or dream.

I miss him, more than anything. I miss being a mommy. As I read some of the other intros on this board, it does make me grateful that we had 6 months with him. I am so glad I have those memories of him. I'm so glad I have the thousands of pictures and tons of videos. But it hurts so much.

We've already met with a counselor. I think we'll like him. It's been relieving to talk about it with someone who is objective and doesn't just automatically default to the usual phrases and looks of awful sympathy and pity. The whole experience was very traumatic, both emotionally and physically, so I think it's a good thing we will have professional help along this journey.

Anyways, I'll stop rambling... thanks for listening. And for being here. 

justellabella

Hi there, I'm sooo sorry about your loss, I lost my two day old son 4months ago today, but even so I can't imagine your pain I get the "morbid" thing, for some unknown reason I've checked out child loss forums before and never thought I'd ever belong : I'm sorry that you belong now too all the best for the days ahead

tubbsy32

I am so sorry for the loss of your baby boy. He is precious. I wish none of had to be here, but I find tremendous amounts of support here and I hope u do too. I'm so sorry.

AmyG2b

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I am so sorry about Milo. The loss is unfathomable, and one that many women here know too well, unfortunately. You are not alone. I'm glad you met with a counselor, we found that very helpful, as well as sharing on this board. 

Good luck with the burial, we will be here for you.  

philfemgal

I am so very sorry about your son.

I think it is good that you have already met with a counselor.  I have found it very helpful to be able to be totally honest with the therapist we have been seeing and not have to worry about being judged or getting looks of pity or cliched encouragement.

pottermommy

Hi Becky.  I hope it doesn't upset you but I read your story, a lady on my PAL page was an aquantaince of yours I believe.  And have prayed for you for days.

I am so so sorry for your loss.  Abruptly losing a child to an accident is terrible path to walk down.  We lost my two year old due to an accidental drowning while I was at work nealy 4 years ago.

If you need anything please feel free to PM me, I will help in any way that I can though, I know there isn't much anyone can do it seems.  I wish I could wake you up and you could run to him, I do.  I hate to welcome you to this group.  But it is a good group to know.  They are so supportive and will give you every oz of care and compassion that we have.

I am so sorry for your loss of sweet Milo.  Once again anything you need please feel free to ask.

-Lyndsey

pottermommy

Oh and you don't have to change your siggy if you don't want to.  That is a big step and something you will find on this board that no matter what, we support whatever you need right here and now.

ALOT of the women here are adding tickers and pictures to their siggy's and the thing is that we all come from a very similar place and want only the best for each other so whatever is in your siggy should be there because you want it there.

Your son in beautiful, and it will not hurt or upset any of us to him. Again so sorry for your loss.

jbranden12

Becky, I am so sorry for the loss of your Milo. You are probably still in shock right now, but it's great that you've already met with a counselor. I too have a hard time dealing with the "usual phrases." Sometimes I don't want pity, but sometimes I do and I just want to shout at people that my baby is dead, so how can they go on like nothing is wrong?! Your feelings might change day to day, minute to minute even. Just let them be what they are. You can always be genuine here. Will be thinking of your family on Tuesday. ((HUGS))

cherrycobbler

I'm so sorry for the loss of your sweet Milo.  I know there is nothing I can say that will ease your pain, but I am glad that you have found a counselor that you are comfortable with.  I hope you are also able to find some comfort on this board, everyone is so welcoming and supportive.  Anything you need to talk about, we are here for you.  Much love and (hugs) to you and your family during this difficult time.

asglover514

I'm so sorry about your baby boy. Please remember you'll always be a mommy, but now you're the mommy of an angel. I know it's not the same but you're sweet angel will always be with you and we're all here for you. *HUGS*

karebear57

I am so sorry about Milo. He is such a hansome, adorable little guy. I am so sorry you have to be here. I am glad you're getting some help. I hope you can find the support you need here too. ((Hugs))

tuscanbride2007

I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet Milo. I hate to welcome you to this board, but know that the women on here are amazing. We all have different stories, but we all know what it is like to lose a child. I hope you find comfort here. I will be thinking of you on Tuesday.

((hugs to you)) 

Bayberry12

Oh Becky,

I am so sorry that you have to be here, no one should have to go through this.  But you have found a great group of women who understand everything you are feeling.  We will all be here for you, for whatever you need.   

foxxy1

I'm so sorry for the loss of your precious son, Milo. Please know you can be yourself here and there's no judgment. All of the ladies here are amazing and helpful. 

*HUGS* 

Mrs Nice

I am so sorry for your loss of sweet baby Milo. Please don't change your siggy, he is so beautiful. I read your story a couple of days ago and am glad you have found us here. The women here are amazing and I hope we can help bring you comfort and support. Please feel free to ramble away and say whatever you need to. I will light a candle for Milo on Tuesday. Big huge to you and your family during this difficult time!

weddedwife

Becky,

I'm so, so sorry for the loss of your son Milo! He is a beautiful baby. I know the pain is overwhelming right now.

This board has been a great source of comfort to me and to lots of other mamas and I hope you are able to feel comforted and supported here as well. Please feel free to say anything at all here, it is all okay in this group.

I know Tuesday will be very, very hard but I hope that the service/burial goes well and that you feel supported by everyone around you.

You will always miss your son- but your love for him will go on and on. By loving him you keep a part of him with you. 

sloannmark

I am so very sorry... you will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Heatherhah

I am so sorry that we have to welcome you to this board. I am so so sorry for the loss of your sweet baby boy Milo he is adorable. Please keep the picture up of him he is beautiful and you should keep it up no matter what. I wish you didn't have to go through this and it totally sucks you have to. But we are here for you always. Thinking of you and your sweet Milo!! Hugs!!

Heather

Carolee

I'm so sorry for the loss of your precious son Milo.  It breaks my heart that you're joining us here, but welcome to the board.  I hope you'll find it to be a source of comfort and support.

samakasrc

I'm so so sorry to welcome you to the board...  I just read your story tonight and I'm very very sorry for the loss of your son.  Losing your son is the hardest thing you will ever have to face.  Know that he will always be with you, he'lll live on through you and your loved ones...  Sending so many thoughts and prayers to you and your family as you embarq on this treacherous journey