*Pg with my Rainbow Check-In*

Mrs Nice

Hello Ladies,

I hope I find you all well this week! I would like to send extra hugs to Wedded Wife this week. Stay positive!

Have you started to discuss names yet? Or if you have already decided on a name, how did you come up with it and does it have any special meaning?

Have you had any baby related dreams during your pregnancy?

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? 

Petunia844

Have you started to discuss names yet? Or if you have already decided on a name, how did you come up with it and does it have any special meaning? Yes we have a name, in my siggy...Raylan Mark.  Yes and no on the meaning for the first name.  We started watching Justified, we started the show maybe a month or so after Peyton died... one day (before we had really talked about TTC again) when we were watching it my husband said "What do you think about the name Raylan?"  I almost cried, it just meant so much to me to hear him thinking of names for future children, and for another boy.  It was just a tiny little spark of hope to me that we would be living a normal life again some day.  At the time though I wasn't sure I liked the name, haha...but the more I say it out loud I just love it...and it means a lot to me.  His middle name, Mark, is my DH's name, my dad's name...and most importantly Peyton's middle name.  Peyton was named after DH and my Dad, but as far as I'm concerned Raylan is taking it after his brother.

Have you had any baby related dreams during your pregnancy?' Yes, I've unfortunately had a few nightmares about losing this baby too, but I also had an amazing dream about my Peyton.  Mostly though my pregnancy dreams are all naughty.

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? Just realizing how close I am to my milestone... it's 5 1/2 weeks away which still sounds far but time is flying... just trying to keep a cool head.

Carolee

I'm just getting caught up with some posts on PgAL and I saw WeddedWife's post.  WeddedWife - Lots and lots of T&P for you and your sweet LO. 

DH and I have talked a little about names.  We both want a name that honors Eliott's memory.  We're thinking of using Elias for a boy (middle name) but now we need to think of something for a girl.

The only baby dreams I've had (that I can remember) are loss dreams .

Still very anxious...I just wonder if I'll ever be able to stop being so scared and actually enjoy this pregnancy.

Auki13

Have you started to discuss names yet? Or if you have already decided on a name, how did you come up with it and does it have any special meaning?  We haven't started talking about names seriously at all yet (when it comes up it's usually because one of us came up with something absurd).  I would like to start discussing it, but even with our other kids it seems like a decision we make sort of last minute.  

Have you had any baby related dreams during your pregnancy?' Not really.  I dream about Annabelle more than I do about this little one.  I'm not sure if that's a good or bad thing.

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? Last 4th of July I was extremely pregnant and even though I knew I was going to lose Annabelle, I still had her alive and kicking away at this point.  I have been comparing this pregnancy to Annabelle's more and more as her birthday/angel-versary get closer and it makes me so sad that my baby would be close to a year already.  My godson (who had the same original due date as Annabelle) is just starting to walk and as much as I love him, it kills me that Annabelle isn't doing the same.

littlepenguin2012

Wedded Wife, please know lots and lots of T&Ps are headed your way- thinking of you a lot and hoping for the best for you and LO!

Have you started to discuss names yet? Or if you have already decided on a name, how did you come up with it and does it have any special meaning?  

We already had a girl name picked from last time, so if it is a girl we will use that.  The boys names are so much harder.  Lucian's name was really the name we both liked and agreed on from the beginning, so we are having a hard time with picking another boys name.  I just keep thinking to myself that I thought we would never have to pick another boys name and I think that messes with me a little and makes it harder.

Have you had any baby related dreams during your pregnancy?

Not really, and if I do they are loss related.  It seems like my dreams are more just general day to day stuff with odd characters from tv shows, really entertaining, but not baby related.   

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?  

We are trying to pick between two MFM practices, because we have two metro areas within the same distance and our OB (and we) thought that we should "shop around" a little.  The decision making is really hard because they both have pluses and minuses.

 Also, both MFMs have said that I don't have to have a repeat c-section, I could try for a VBAC, but my OB thinks these pregnancies are too close together and that the risks aren't worth it.... now we have to make a decision about that too and it freaks me out a lot.   

Heatherhah

Have you started to discuss names yet? Or if you have already decided on a name, how did you come up with it and does it have any special meaning? we have names picked out we are planners always and when we first got married we had names right away for our first , then after we had her we had the next baby's name ready and so on. But when Sydney died I looked at names and I still get to pick the girls name and he picks the boys names . But for this baby he picked the girls and i love it. So we will see. The girls name has a ton of meaning for us and I will share the name once we know for sure what we are having. We do try to keep the A middle name . We all have A middle names.

Have you had any baby related dreams during your pregnancy? I don't dream about the baby or even Sydney. i have only dreamt aboout Sydney once. 

 Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? I am stressing about my uocoming A/S, it is July 16th I might sneak in to see if baby is okay because I was told I could come in , in between each appt if I need the reassurance. I have also been super swollen and have been having cramps.

nuttycoconut

You are in my thoughts, wedded wife, and I've been looking for an update from you all day. I hope things have calmed down in your tummy!

Names: Names have been really difficult for us. We obviously used our absolute favorite boy and girl names and middle names already so we are struggling with having to think of names we like as much. We have a few girl names picked out and are working on boy names. I just love the names Max and Molly so much We may end up using my DH's name because we have such different taste in boy names! I'd like to give these LO's Max and Molly's middle names but DH disagrees. I can't wait until we know the sexes of the babies!

Dreams: I'm barely sleeping these days so unfortunately the only dream I remember is a miscarriage dream. I've been waking up and reliving the nightmare of giving birth to Max and Molly a lot though. I haven't done this since January/February and it's so upsetting.  I'm back to wishing I had done more...researched more...fought for them to keep me on hospital bed rest, etc. This is on my mind because I'm back to reading pregnancy books again and decided not to skip the section on complications like I did last time. Hindsight is 20/20 I suppose. 

Open topic: how many of you gave/will give your rainbow baby the same middle name as your angel baby? Why or why not? 

careyalis

We have talked about names a little bit, and kind of have an idea for a girl (they all start with A) but have no clue for a boy. DH is very adamant that the next child's middle name will be Avery in honor of their sister.

 

I really haven't had any dreams lately.

 

I have an ultrasound on Wednesday and I'm a little nervous about that. I really hope that they're able to see the heartbeat.  It is so bizarre to me that I'm back in the first tri.  I feel like I just did this and should be able to skip ahead to the healthy baby part. 

MeggM1

Have you started to discuss names yet? Or if you have already decided on a name, how did you come up with it and does it have any special meaning?

Our naming mechanism is name we like for first name and family name for middle name.  So our angel's name is Madelyn Alice - first name I had picked out since childhood, and then Alice is my middle name and my great grandmother's middle name.  Our son is Jackson Carl - another baby name I picked out when I was like, 10, and then Carl is a family name of my husband's.  So this baby will be the same (I am kind of crazy about not sharing baby names until they are here - for the most part we kept the twins' names a secret the entire pregnancy).  If it's a girl, the name we have picked out follows our naming strategy and she'd share initials with me and Madelyn (MAM) which I think of as kind of a tribute to her older sister.  We think we have a boy name but I'm still not sold on the first name.  

Have you had any baby related dreams during your pregnancy?

My baby related dreams are really scary and I don't want to put them out there in the world!  I'm hoping they subside for awhile. 

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? 

My NT Scan is Monday along with our appointment with the MFM, and I'm so ready for that appointment and to see our baby again.  I'm nervous and excited and ready for the first trimester to be over, because I just feel like my second trimester was such a happy, fun time in my last pregnancy and I felt great, so I'm hoping for at least the feeling great part.  Just glad to be here, I guess!

Have a good week, ladies (and babies)! 

weddedwife

Thanks for the extra hugs! I definitely need them! Yesterday I had no cramps at all and was feeling so much more positive, but today I've had cramping on/off all day and I'm back to worrying.

DH and I have started discussing names very seriously this week. We had not picked out a name for Nathaniel yet when he passed away and it was an awful, awful way to choose a name for a baby. So we want to name this baby while he/she is still alive & healthy. I know that sounds morbid but it may be a reality we have to face. I will feel so much better if we have names in place, for a healthy baby. It will feel hopeful, and if things go well it will be nothing more than just naming a healthy baby.

I have only had 1 baby-related dream period since our loss; I can't remember if I was pg when I had it or not. I saw an approx. 6 mo old chubby baby boy sitting and smiling up at me. He was fair and blond, looked just like DD but a boy. Nathaniel already had blond hair when he was born & he looked just like DD. I have no idea what that dream meant but it was kind of nice. Other than that I've had a few dreams where I was pg but nothing more. I'm kind of glad; it's like sleep is my escape from all the concerns that go on all day long.

 The viability of this pg is obviously on my mind all week. If you are curious, I posted a few times over on PgAL, but in a nutshell things aren't looking positive. I'm already having signs of PTL and we are no where near viability. We stand a good chance of losing this baby too and I'm terrified.