Just a hug..

Bubsie1020

I had severe PPA for about 6 months after L was born. It was bad- washing bottles 3 times because I was sure there was soap residue that would make L sick, feeling like I couldn't breath at night dreading the every 2 hour wake up cry. I remember like it was yesterday. The colic my daughter had just compounded the problem. I wanted to wake  up somewhere anywhere else every day. I spoke to my doctor who is the best most kind hearted woman ever and she prescribed some meds (first Xanax then switching to Lexapro. Slowly I got my head back. The colic stopped at about 6 months and I finally felt like a mom. Don't get me wrong there are days when I look at the clothes that still don't fit or days when L throws a tantrum at the park and I want to crawl under a rock but all those people who told me it would get better were right. 

  I was sooo scared that I'd be hooked on meds forever or that they wouldn't help I couldn't have been more wrong. Long story short seek help if you feel put of sorts and know that these feelings will pass ( I know that's annoying to her but very true). Also know you're not alone.  Most of all hugs!!! 

winter-shock

THanks. As more time goes by I really see that I am dealing with PPA way more than PPD. The anxiety can be so consuming!