Sigh.
So I have been going into this third c-section with the thought that I have done this twice and I will be fine. Healthy baby, healthy mommy, that is my goal. Suddenly the last couple days I have had this terrified feeling start to sink in. I am getting panic attacks and experiencing moments of wth am I doing?! I can't figure out why though.
Like I said this is my third round and I know what to expect with the surgery and everything following. My first was a c-section due to lack of progression, (5cm after 17 hrs), the second was supposed to be scheduled but I went into spontaneous labor a week early so it turned into an unscheduled one. This time I have one scheduled for July 10th and think I am going to make it. I just can't make these nerves go away.
Hoping for some encouraging words? Anyone else have crazy anxiety even though you knew what to expect?
Re: Suddenly anxious
I'm not currently pregnant, but the idea of giving birth again scares me to death - I also had an unplanned c-section with DS because of failure to progress, and so many other things also happened that just made his birth so incredibly stressful. The whole idea of giving birth again gives me terrible anxiety, and I'm so glad that we've always planned to wait awhile to have another. Whether I try a VBAC or have a scheduled c-section, the thought is terrifying to me.
I think that your anxiety is justified. Neither birth has gone as planned, and even though you know what to expect during/after the surgery, you don't know if it's going to go as planned this time. Completely reasonable given your past experience.
Take a deep breath, hug your babies, and remind yourself of what you're going to have at the end - a beautiful baby in your arms, the one you've been carrying with you for so long. Don't expect things to go as planned, but be delightfully surprised if they do. GL!