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Lavender&Lillies

I have been reading your posts for almost 2 months now and have gained a lot of comfort in seeing other women and men surviving the loss of their sweet babies. It is a strange kind of comfort to know that you are not alone in something so devastating. I wish that none of us had to go through this.

My husband and I lost our first son, Braxton, on April 23rd. I couldn't feel movement that evening, and after trying everything to get our little man moving, we went to Labor and Deliver and had our worst fears confirmed. No heartbeat. His heartbeat had always been so strong. I delivered Braxton on April 25th. He was the most beautiful baby I had ever seen and my husband was so proud of his dark wavy hair. He was perfect.

We don't know why Braxton was stillborn. The autopsy was inconclusive and all the blood work did not give us an answer. I have gone over the events of the days leading up to losing our baby over and over. I tried so hard to do everything right. I have been told by several doctors and nurses that it was nothing that I did or didn't do that caused us to lose Braxton, but truly believing that has been one of my hardest struggles. Now, two months later, I know that it was not my fault, but even saying that brings tears to my eyes. I just miss my baby boy so much and wish he could be here with his daddy and me. 

 

foxxy1

I'm so sorry for the loss of your sweet Braxton. Please know you're among friends here and there's no judgment. We all support and understand each other. You can be safe here.

Also, I don't know if you caught this thread but it might be helpful to you:

 https://community.thebump.com/cs/ks/forums/thread/66361040.aspx

The thread is advice from other Angel Mommies about what you're going through and the best way to cope with your loss.

*HUGS*

medblais

I am so sorry for your loss of baby Braxton. I hope that you can continue to find comfort here with the ladies on this board. I have found it has helped me a lot to have a place to go, to vent or listen to other people who can understand what I am going through. {{hugs}}

JessicaRobb

I am very sorry for the loss of your son. I am glad you found us here.

sloannmark

My heart breaks for you over the loss of your son. This board has been extremely helpful and I'm glad you've found some comfort here.

karebear57

*Hugs* I am so sorry about Braxton. We are all here if you need to talk, cry, vent or anything.

tuscanbride2007

I am so sorry for the loss of your son, Braxton. Please be gentle with yourself. Grief is messy, but we are all here for you when you need us.

jbranden12

I am so sorry for the loss of your Braxton David. Your story is very similar to mine, it is very difficult to have no answers. I am like you in that I know it was not my fault, but I hate that I was not able to save him. I hope you can find some support among these amazing women. ((HUGS))

barbie92

I am so sorry for the loss of your son Braxton. ((hugs))

Mrs Nice

I am so sorry for your loss of your baby boy Braxton. I hope you can find some comfort and support here with us.

laurendSept05

I am so sorry for the loss of your son Braxton.  It is a comfort to come on here and know that you are not alone.  I don't know anyone in my life who has been through this, so it has been helpful to see that others feel and have felt the way I do.  I hope you find the same comfort.  Take care.

Carolee

I'm so sorry for the loss of your sweet boy Braxton.  I'm sorry you're joining us, but I hope you'll find comfort here.  Welcome to the board.

eroplane

I am so sorry for the loss of your son Braxton. I am so so sorry you found yourself here but I hope you find some comfort and camaraderie. Big hugs. 

tubbsy32

I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet baby boy. I know it's easier said than done, but please don't blame yourself. You were an excellent Mommy to Braxton and I'm sure that he loved the months he spent in your warm and cozy womb.

 I am so sorry. ((HUGS))

littlepenguin2012

i am so sorry for your loss and that you are joining us here, but I hope this board will be a bit of a comfort to you.  ((hugs)).

cherrycobbler

I'm so sorry for the loss of your little Braxton.  You are right, it is strangely reassuring to know that there are others out there going through the same situation.  I think I read posts on here for about 3 months before I spoke up.  I hope you are able to find some comfort here, the women here are always so helpful.  Much love and ((hugs)) to you and your family during this time.