My husband and I were on the subway yesterday and a woman gets on with three kids, one of them a baby a few months old. She sits down right in front of me. I think, ok- this is no big deal, it's not my baby. Then she sits her baby on her lap so he is facing me, and looking at me and making baby noises. I feel my face get get hot. I have to get away from this baby. My eyes start to fill up. I have to get away from this baby. We get up and turn around to move to another seat, and the train is an obstacle course of strollers and kids. So, I just go stand by the door and wait for my stop.
Once we get off and are on the street, a very pregnant girl walks by in a cute dress, kinda like what I used to wear to work. I see my husband look at me, while I just try to keep my eyes on the ground.
Somedays it's so easy to get knocked back, and somedays everything is just fine. I really never know how I'm going to react to anything.
Are your emotions still so unpredictable, how do you handle those moments when you feel the waive of pain coming?