TTC after 35

Is it Just Me or What?

So frustrated today - I'm in my 2WW with very little hope and I'm just trying to get through day by day and unfortunately I can't catch a break.  Everyone in my dept. at work has young children and pictures are everywhere - but the lady that sits in the cube beside me at  work puts her young daughter on speaker phone to talk to her in the morning and in the afternoon to check in on her - It's excruciating to listen to the conversations she has and I put my headphones on and turn the music up as loud as possible everyday - She also makes comments all the time about  how women shouldn't have children late in life and to add insult to injury - she is pregnant with baby #2 and 26 years old and thinks she is running out of time and wants all 5 of her children by the time she is 30.  

MH and I go out to restaurants and the hostess tries to sit us next to a table with children - we request another table and wouldn't you know it a few minutes later they sit a couple next to us with young children.  I know there have been lots of pregnant women before my husband and I started this journey - they just seem to be everywhere now and it's unbelievable how something that makes others so happy can make me feel so bad, bitter and guilty for feeling this way.  The things IF can do to you.

Me 38 MH 41 - TTC since June 2010 - dx with Severe MFI. Straight to IVF with ICSI. IVF #1 - ER 06/13/12 - 9 Eggs Retrieved - 4 ICSI'd - only 2 fert. 06/15/12 - 2DT - 3 cell & 6 cell with fragmentation. Beta 06/29/12 - IVF #1 = BFN. 07/20/12 - WTF Appt -Told by our RE to quit IVF. Second Opinion from RE is good. IVF#2 - November 2012. Estradiol Pills Started 11/6. Stims start 11/16. ER 11/26 - 7 eggs retrieved - all mature. 4 fertilized with ICSI. ET 11/29 Transferred 3 embryos. Beta is 12/10. 1st Beta 81 2nd Beta 160 and 3rd beta 360!!! First U/S 12/21/12 - We saw one beautiful gest. sac. 2nd U/S is 01/04/2013 - H/B 183 02/05/13 - NT Scan - everything looks good and IT'S A BOY!  Aiden was born 08/20/2013.

IVF #2 is in progress.  ER was 05/12/14 - 11 eggs retrieved, 8 fertilized with ICSI.  ET was 05/15/14 - we transferred 3 embryos as we did on the cycle my son was conceived.  We were able to freeze 3 embryos. Beta is scheduled for 05/26/14.  1st beta - 111.  2nd beta - 159 didn't double :( 3rd beta Friday 5/30) - not a lot of hope left. Beta # 3 is 247 - probably ectopic.  Beta # 4 is 813 - possibly vanishing multiple sydrome?  06/05/14 - 5w4days - first U/S - we see a gestational sac and yolk - still have hope!  06/17/14 - 7w1day - U/S and saw and heard the heartbeat - Finally!  06/27/14 - 8w4days - Baby and heartbeat look and sound great :)  EDD 02/01/14 and It's a boy!

 "Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end."


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Re: Is it Just Me or What?

  • Nope, it isn't just you...  Yesterday when we were leaving the hotel for my ET, what do I see but a very PG woman waddling around with her big belly at the hotel swimming pool chasing her 2 yr old. T H E Y are E V E R Y W H E R E....

    I would seriously go postal on your co-worker if I heard the "Late in life" comment! Those people need to be put in their place sometimes.

    TTC #1 since 8/1/10; Me:41 and BRCA1+, DH:46
    DOR (FSH 24.3)/ terrible egg quality ; homozygous MTHFR c677t
    5 IUI's: 2/11 to 6/11 and 1/12= BFN
    OE IVF#1-4 8/11-6/12= all BFN
    DE IVF#1 11/12 bad embryos= BFN
    DE IVF #2 2/13 BFP/Beta hell: m/c 5w6d
    CFNBC 7 months, not doing well; decided on guarantee program at RBA w/frozen DE
    DE IVF #3 1/14  ET 4BB; BFP;M/C 5w1d, incomplete m/c; MVA extraction in ER 7w1d

    DE FET#1 ET 3/1714; BFP, beta 1 3/27= 197, beta 2 3/31= 1586, beta 3 4/7= 13879!!
    First u/s= Twins with HBs at 6w2d! We are Team Pink x 2!!

    K & K born 11/21/14 at 38wks 4 days


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  • no, it's not you. they are everywhere!!!! even here ----------------------->
    Me:39 Dx LPD, Fibroid, AMA and all that goes with that. H:37 Dx low motility and low morphology. TTC since 3/12. Clomid 8/12 and 9/12: BFN. 11/12 on a break for Myomectomy sched. 11/26. Resume TTC early 2013.
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  • It seems the more we want to become pregnant and the harder we try the more pregnant ladies we see or run into! Ugh....hate IF....just hate it!
    TTC #1 since 2/10 Me 38 FSH 12.9 & AMH 0.16 DH 47, low sperm count due to meds. 07/11 We have sperm! 28 million, 70% motility, morphology 1% normal. 08/14/11 1st IUI unmedicated BFN. 09/11/11 2nd IUI w/ Femara + trigger BFN 10/14/11 trigger & Final IUI 10/16/11 BFN 10/21/11 Started acupuncture and loving it! 01/21 ET one embryo 6 cell grade C. Beta 02/02. BFN. Taking a much needed break. image
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