Hello Everyone,
I was never active on the miscarriage/pregnancy loss board mainly because when I found out we had miscarried in January- there was no heartbeat at our 10 week apt. Apparently the baby had stopped growing at 8 week (D & C followed) - I just wanted to forget it...wipe the slate clean and not try to further dwell on it. I think I dealt with it OK as, and my DH was very supportive and I had very supportive friends and family. Anyways, now I'm 6w 5d pregnant, which I am very excited and of course nervous about but I am worried about how I'm going to react going to my first ultrasound next Thursday. I already see myself having a panic attack on the ride there. In addition, if I once again hear, "I don't see a heartbeat" from the US technician I'm afraid of what my reaction will be. To be honest, I can see a fit of rage happening, which is totally illogical but I have pictured in my head.
I also know that this is something completely out of my control and I should just enjoy being pregnant, but the simple fact is, I can't do that. I don't know what to do to calm these thoughts of mine but just saying "what will be, will be" is not working for me. I'm just in a state of distress and I have no idea what to do...
Thanks for letting me vent...I just have a lot of emotions that I have no idea how to handle right now.
I'm wishing you all the best and hope you all have uneventful pregnancies and beautiful babies.
Re: Worried about my reaction....
BFP#1 on 02/14/09 BIRTH to Mason 6lb9oz on 10/12/09
BFP#2 on 5/28/11 EDD 2/1/12 Natural M/C on 6/13/11
BFP#3 on 1/20/12 EDD 9/30/12 Natural m/c on 1/27/12
BFP#4 on 4/23/12 BIRTH to Isabella 7lb1oz on 12/19/12
BFP 11/09 - DD 7/10 - BFP 8/11 - M/C 9/11 - BFP 6/12 - DD - 2/13
We all share your fears and I think we all get super anxious before our appointments...I know I'm going crazy for July 2nd to hurry up and get here.
((hugs)) to you!
Henry Cavill...You're welcome!
BFP #3: EDD 1/10/13 **DS born 12/30/12!!!**
BFP #2: MC 7/2/11 @ 12 weeks
**Missing our February '12 LoveBug**
BFP #1: MMC discovered on 12/6/10
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