*Pg with my Rainbow Check-In*

Mrs Nice

Hello Ladies!

I hope I find you all well this week! Please share any milestones you have coming up.

Will you be delivering at the same hospital that you had your loss at? How do you feel about that?

Pregnancy hormones are crazy enough as it is! How are you handling them with the added emotions of having your loss?

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? 

Heatherhah

Will you be delivering at the same hospital that you had your loss at? How do you feel about that? Yes I will be delivering at the same hospital I really don't have another option my new OB only goes the that hospital so we are sort of stuck. I am okay with it since I did have a positive experience with DD#1 she was delivered there and they were awesome so one bad and one good. But honestly after I had Sydney the nurses were amazing and it wasn't the hospitals fault she passed so I think we or i will be fine or I hope.

Pregnancy hormones are crazy enough as it is! How are you handling them with the added emotions of having your loss? it is crazy hard being pregnant after a loss like ours. It makes the smallest things seem so much worse. I am happy to be pregnant but I am terrified this baby will die too. It is so hard.

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? I just fell this morning now I'm freaking out thinking something will happen to this baby I didn't hit my belly but still I am freaking out. This is a tough time for sure I wish it was November already.

Petunia844

Will you be delivering at the same hospital that you had your loss at? How do you feel about that? I'm not 100% sure yet.... I have two doctors this time around, my MFM and my OB.  My OB will be out of town from the time I'm about about 35-37 weeks.  So, if for any reason I went in to labor or needed to be induced in that time, our MFM would deliver and he doesn't have privileges at the hospital we delivered Peyton at.  BUT if I make it until after my OB comes home (fingers crossed!) it will be the same hospital with the same doctor.  That would be my preference, I feel it will be healing for me if we are at the same place with the same doctor.  I also feel like it brings my son's closer together somehow.

Pregnancy hormones are crazy enough as it is! How are you handling them with the added emotions of having your loss?  Umm... I guess I'm just handling them, I have no choice really.  I have super emotional days... but you just have to keep going.  I just love the baby inside me with all that I have, I hold my belly and try to remember that my child is in there.  Both of my boys are helping to get me through it. 

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? I'm not sure... I'm just taking it one day at a time, thankfully the pregnancy seems to be going relatively fast.

Carolee

Will you be delivering at the same hospital that you had your loss at? How do you feel about that?  I'm unsure on this one yet...there is potential that I might.  It does make me a little anxious.

Pregnancy hormones are crazy enough as it is! How are you handling them with the added emotions of having your loss?  I've been having a rough time lately.  Lots of things going on in my life that are hard to deal with.  I've been trying to get out of the house some and spend some time with friends to keep my mind off things.

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?  I'm really anxious about not having a plan in place yet for when I will deliver.  I got the referral for our anatomy scan yesterday at my OB appointment (we're seeing an MFM for the scan).  I'm really hoping he'll be able to provide some insight and recommendations so we can come up with a plan I'm comfortable with.

Auki13

I will be delivering at the same hospital with the same nurse midwife (I have had her all three times before and don't want to change), and had as good an experience with Annabelle there as possible, but I am still nervous about going back.  I drive past the hospital to get to my nurse midwife for appointments and every time in brings back my memories of having Annabelle.  I am hoping (as Petunia mentioned) that having my rainbow baby there will be healing.

I am struggling more with this pregnancy than I ever imagined!  I thought that with having 2 healthy babies before losing Annabelle would make it easier for me.  I also thought that after seeing this babies brain and head developing I would feel better.  I was totally wrong.  It seems that once you lose a baby a whole world of possibilities opens and I worry about everything.  I am trying to be happy with this pregnancy (as we are thinking this will probably be our last), but I have been having a difficult time dealing with depression and anxiety... 

littlepenguin2012

Will you be delivering at the same hospital that you had your loss at? How do you feel about that?  No, we will be delivering at a hospital a few hours away.  We have a different MFM than we originally planned, but I am happy with the new hospital and doctors.  I just hope we can make it there if I end up getting sick again.

Pregnancy hormones are crazy enough as it is! How are you handling them with the added emotions of having your loss?  It is really hard.  I don't think anyone who suffers a loss like this can possibly expect anything less.  One thing that really is driving me crazy right now is people who say, "once you hear the baby cry, you'll know everything is okay"- except my son cried the first time and he wasn't okay.  People really just don't get it.  (sorry, I am having kind of a rough day)

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?   I am thinking about going back to a prenatal yoga class, but I am worried it might turn out to be really hard emotionally.

weddedwife

I will be delivering at the same hospital. I have Kaiser so all of my Dr.'s are in that same building- I've been back there over a dozen times since my loss and up until this very last visit I was having a horrible time going in there. I mean, sweating, shaking, crying every time I went there. I still feel very sad when I go there but at least it is getting a little easier. I'm VERY worried about delivering there- I'm sure I will be so emotional going back to labor & delivery. I can only hope I don't have to visit until December!!! This might sound weird but I remember exactly how the front of the building looked the day we drove away without our baby. The sky was gray, it was raining and I remember seeing the naked tree branches against the building. Now when I go there it's sunny, the sky is blue and the trees are all full & leafy. Somehow that makes it easier, but I don't know how I will feel once the weather changes.
I really have to make a conscious effort to not worry. When I start, I forcefully stop myself. I know it won't do me any good, and it won't change any outcomes. One thing I do know is that if I feel something isn't right, I will go get checked. Even if it's just my emotions playing tricks on me.
Just trying to take it day by day. My progesterone injections start in 2 weeks. I'm trying to not get anxious about that.

alliedoe

Will you be delivering at the same hospital that you had your loss at? How do you feel about that? No I won't be at the same hospital.  I was taken to a high risk hospital by ambulance with the twins but I am not even with the same doctor this pregnancy.  I needed a whole new experience.Pregnancy hormones are crazy enough as it is! How are you handling them with the added emotions of having your loss?We had our 1 year anniversary/birthday on June 8th.  We survived.  Right now I am getting impatient to give birth.  I can't wait to meet this little guy and just want him here NOW!  I get worried about all of the end of pregnancy things that could happen. 

nuttycoconut

No I won't be delivering at the same hospital. I switched to a high risk ob and he happens to deliver in a different hospital so I'm great with that! 

My hormones have been in check lately. I had an ultrasound today and my RE measured the heartbeats. They were 146 and 138. She said everything she has seen indicates that this will be a viable, successful pregnancy. I go to my first high risk appt on Monday. I'm thrilled. 

I have been so thankful and happy, so things are good emotionally. Sometimes im a little grumpy or short with my DH because I've been sick in the middle of the night with nausea which means I'm even more exhausted during the day. I tell myself that the babies are letting me know they are ok so I can have peace of mind:)  But the good news is yesterday was my last day of school so I've rested all day today and feel so much better. I'm so glad that the timing of this pregnancy allows me to relax as much as I need to during first tri.

 

JabberJay

I likely will deliver at a different hospital.  The current plan is for me to be induced early, and the hospital I used for my last two doesn't have a NICU.

 

Right now, I am stressing out.  I am only 5w4d and for nearly two weeks now I have had an ache on the left side  of my stomach. I had a cyst with my DD at it felt similar, do I assume that is what it is.  I have had no spotting and obviously three and a half weeks would be super early for tubal pain to show up, but I can't shake the fear that it is ectopic. 

careyalis

Add me to the list!!!  I will deliver at the same hospital with the same doctor if everything goes smoothly. I'm pretty terrified but very excited for my rainbow!