It's almost here... already.

figgs0831

Saterday is Mason's EDD... and in 3 weeks we are already at Logan's 1-year angelversary.  I just can't get my mind around the fact that it has been a year.  So much has happened.

I still remember everything so vividly.  The feeling I had when my water broke, the look the ultrasound tech and doctor had when they confirmed that I ruptured.  The fear of not knowing what the hell was happening and the realization that I had to deliver her.  My husband's tears.  The delivery and realizing it was a boy, not a girl.  Then the awful walk out of the hospital; babyless and bellyless.

I just don't get it.  Why is it still so fresh?  Part of me just wants to forget and the other wants to hold onto everything.  What did you guys do on the 1st angelversary?  DH, along with everyone else, will probably forget his birthdate and it upsets me more than anything.  I don't want him to be forgotten. 

Heatherhah

I'm so sorry you are dealing with the loss of both of your baby boys so close to each other. No one should have to deal with that. I can't hug you but I want to send some huge hugs your way. My 1 yr isn't for a few more months so I really have no advice but I wanted to tell you that I will be thinking of you the next few days and the next few weeks as well. Hugs to you my friend!!

Heather

johnnys june

HUGE *hugs*  This breaks my heart.  It's all so fresh because it's still all so "new."  Sending you lots of T & P, lovey.  

pb127

I'm so sorry Figgs. I remember reliving things clearly too at the one year mark, even things I had blocked out, but they've since returned to the "background".  For DS's birthday, we got him a card and celebrated him at dinner together.  I told DH far in advance what I wanted to do (and I told him a few times) so I wouldn't be disappointed.  My mom sent us a card (I reminded her, but she said she was thinking about what she should do) too.

Logan and Mason won't ever be forgotten, Figgs. They live in your heart and in ours. (((hugs)))