Questions if you ruptured...

thefarmchick

I'm still having a hard time dealing with the after effects of having a uterine rupture. 

Baby #1: Pprom at 30 weeks. Emergency c-section under general because feet were coming out.
Baby #2: VBAC then I hemorrhaged but they were able to get it under control.
Baby #3: I was trying for a VBAC and ended up with a uterine rupture and c-section under general

After 3 less than ideal deliveries my OB highly recommended that we no longer have any children.  We live in a very rural area and it truly is a miracle that we survived the uterine rupture.  She says that she can't guarantee the outcome should it happen again, that they were barely able to save the baby and me and that my uterus will not support another full term pregnancy.

Everyone keeps telling me to count my blessings and that I have 3 healthy children and it could be worse. For the most part I agree with them. I am blessed we are all home happy and healthy.  But the abrupt end to my fertility and the fact that it is because MY body doesn't cooperate has left me feeling a guilty, empty, and sad.

My husband understands more than I thought he would and encourages "mourning" the loss.

I just wondered if anyone else has felt the same way? Did you lose your ability to have children after your rupture? How did/are you dealing with it?

 

 

 

 

IfferMarie

I haven't had the same experience as you. I just wanted to send you some hugs. Try to take comfort in your 3 healthy children. I am so glad you are okay!

semdkm

First, sorry for such awful experiences.  I'm glad that you and your three children are healthy!  I didn't rupture, but am in the same position of realizing it's not wise to have more children, and I have two.  Always thought I'd have many children, but suffered four losses, and two pretty scary births, plus have a clotting disorder that makes it more likely for me to have a stroke while pregnant (meaning daily injections while pregnant, increased worry, etc).  It's not an easy reality to swallow, but I try just to count my very special two blessings--there was a time when we feared we couldn't have any (especially after losing the four). 

Strawberrywine

Hugs! You completely deserve to mourn your loss of your fertility.

 While I don't think I want to have more children, I mourn not having the choice too. How lucky are you to have a supportive husband who understands.  I do feel as if time helps to heal. I also try to focus on what I'm enjoying about what I have right now.

JustHyr

I'm so sorry

I have not ruptured, but I'm at high risk of doing so because I had an abdominal myomectomy several years ago.  They're taking her 9 days early because of this risk and not wanting me to go into labor at all.   

Cheerio B

I know I'm late with this but thought I'd respond in case you check back. I attempted a VBAC with DS and my uterus ruptured. It was a back rupture, it was pooling internally and no one knew what was happening. We got pretty sick and thankfully the doc called for an emergency CS when she did. It wasn't until she cut me open that she discovered the rupture.

The doc told me that I could attempt an other child but I would be closely watched by a high risk doc with a mandatory CS at 37 weeks. Unfortunately I have had strong BH contractions with both of my kids and its possible those could cause a rupture. W have decided that we can't risk my life or a future baby's life so we won't have any more children.  I'm having a very hard time with that.  i wanted an other child. To be honest I'm just trying not to think about it right now. Having a newborn is hard enough, I don't want to add the emotions of the loss of potential other children to the mix.

Hope this gets easier for you.