*Pg with my Rainbow Check-In*

Mrs Nice

Hello Ladies!

I am not currently Pg so this post is just for you! Any suggestions for topics/questions you would like to see posted would be greatly appreciated!

 How many weeks Pg are you?

Your Pg journey thus far: 

Any big milestones coming up?

Biggest joy of being Pg right now:

Biggest fear of being Pg right now:

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? 

 

Heatherhah

Love this idea!! Thank you.

How many weeks Pg are you? 12wks 5 days

Your Pg journey thus far: very scary it is hard to believe I am pregnant again , I miss my baby in heaven so much and being pregnant isn't easy after losing her.

Any big milestones coming up? My NTscan is Tuesday so I am pretty scared praying everything is okay with this little one.

Biggest joy of being Pg right now: Well being honest there isn't a ton of joy since I am so scared all the time. I hope since we know baby is okay  things will get better but it is so hard. Knowing that I will get as many u/s as I want in the third trimester since my MFM will be watching me so much. he promised he would get me my take home baby.

Biggest fear of being Pg right now: Losing this baby too like we lost Sydney but the good thing is I will have a scheduled c section at 37 weeks totally missing my 38 wk 4 day loss time line.

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? I am almost in my second trimester but each day is hard. I take each day as it comes and hope for the best but each day is hard i miss my baby and being pregnant doesn't take that away at all and never will. I am also trying hard to believe this baby will come home to us since Sydney didn't.

 

johnnys june

What a great idea.  This could be a good way to see who all is currently PgAL over here too since there aren't announcements because we're all trying to be sensitive to others who aren't in this part of their journey yet.

 How many weeks Pg are you? 34+

Your Pg journey thus far:  Tough.  Physically, mentally, and emotionally. Surreal.

Any big milestones coming up? No major milestones since I already passed my loss milestone weeks ago.  My biggest goal though is to make it to 37 weeks to my c-section date.  My realistic goal is to make it to 36 weeks which is next weekend.

Biggest joy of being Pg right now: Each and every day.  I've made it nearly 10 weeks farther than I did with Logan.  My friend asked me the other day if I enjoyed this pregnancy...My honest answer "I enjoyed parts of it."  There are times to celebrate, hurdles to pass, the little things.  But when this pregnancy is over and one with we will be taking a break from all TTC/PG related things.  This pregnancy is a day in and day out constant of bittersweetness.  But my baby girl has already taught me so much about love and healing...

Biggest fear of being Pg right now: Not making it to 36-37 weeks.  Even one day in the NICU terrifies me....

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? Making it to my goal.  Resting, nesting, and being prepared every day that today could be the day.  And of course, Logan.  I miss him.  I'm not prepared for the emotions that I know will be undone and overflow the day I finally get to meet my rainbow baby.  I'm both terrified and hopeful that I will see "Logan" in her face...the resemblence.  I know he's watching over us...and I know he's going to be an amazing guardian angel brother to her.  But my heart will both be broken and so full at the very same time....You can't really be prepared for it.

Petunia844

How many weeks: I am 21 weeks.

My journey thus far: The other girls hit it on the head, journey is the perfect word.  I have complete panic attacks, being only 21 weeks I feel regular movement but he's still so small... if I don't feel him for an hour I have flashbacks.  It's terrifying, and a little bit lonely because no matter who wants to support you, they don't understand.  It's also amazing.... feeling those kicks again, knowing I have him with me all the time, knowing that his brother is watching over us all.  To say I'm all over the place would be an understatement.

Milestones coming up: I just passed one, 20 weeks is when preeclampsia symptoms can start to show up and when my rings stopped fitting last time.  They're still on, and not tight.  Every week without swelling is a mini-milestone for me. My biggest milestone, my  loss milestone is still over 2 months away.

Biggest Joy: My time I have with this new baby.  I don't take a single kick for granted.  As scary as it is I love him with all that I have.

Biggest Fear: Of course, losing him.  

What's on my mind:  It changes from day to day, some days I'm really ok...feeling really positive.  Yesterday for no reason I had a total panic attack.  I'd literally been feeling him just an hr before but I just started to flip.  It's just tough....but I know it will be worth it a million times over when my rainbow is in my arms.

krysiahamaty

 How many weeks Pg are you? 29 weeks 1 day

Your Pg journey thus far: like PPs said, scary, emotional, a journey.

Any big milestones coming up? Just waiting to reach the 30 week mark. Baby girl is due August 22nd but they will deliver her via c section at 38 weeks so August 8th is the big day

Biggest joy of being Pg right now: she moves a lot so I really enjoy feeling her and it gives me hope.

Biggest fear of being Pg right now: Losing her.

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? I can't believe time has gone by so fast. It's been 8 months since losing Jack and I'm 7 months pregnant. 

 

MrsRiceARoni

How many weeks Pg are you? 8w2d

Your Pg journey thus far: So far I have been so sick! My m/s is much worse this time around than it was with Noah. It's also been quite a roller coaster, having finally gotten pregnant after trying for a year, and resulting to clomid. It was also pretty difficult trying not to panic when my EDD got pushed back a week at my first u/s.

Any big milestones coming up? Not for a while, I'll have my NST on July 2, which is my birthday so it better be good.

Biggest joy of being Pg right now: Right now I'm just so greatful to be pregnant at all.

Biggest fear of being Pg right now:  I'm so scared about being pregnant as well. I'm worried about the stress and fear of being pregnant again, I'm woried about getting Pre-e again and I'm of course worried about another loss.

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? We're going out of town next week for a conference, and I'm still trying to figure out the logistics of how spread out the bathrooms are. I have been so sick that I am greatly concearned about not making it to the bathroom and making a mess of myself. I'm thinking of asking my doctor for a perscription for anti-nausea meds even tho I'm affraid of taking them.

 

nuttycoconut

How many weeks Pg are you?:  5 weeks 1 day

Your Pg journey thus far: I've already had quite a journey since I had to go through another IVF cycle. I am grateful that physically, it was easier on my body than last time. The two week wait, however, was excruciating. I was convinced it didn't work. I had a BFN at 9 dpo and was devastated. Also, my progesterone was super low when it was very high last time. However, at 10dpo and 12 dpo I had positive tests. My RE confirmed when she did my bloodwork at 14 dpo. My progesterone went way up too.

Any big milestones coming up?: My first ultrasound on June 13 when I find out if I'm having twins or a singleton! I am praying that I see 2 little hearts beating.

Biggest joy of being Pg right now: I feel so grateful that the IVF worked. That's pretty remarkable since a year ago I was angry that for someone who wanted to be a mom as much as I did, I couldn't get pregnant on my own. And there is absolutely NO reason since I'm "unexplained infertility". Now I'm just grateful it worked the first time, and again the second time. I also am so incredibly grateful that my beta numbers were extremely high. My RE said it's a very strong pregnancy and it's most likely twins again so I feel like it's a little sign from Max and Molly telling me to relax right now. There is nothing I can do if something goes wrong, and I should just savor and enjoy every minute. Let's see how long this positive thinking goes on

Biggest fear of being Pg right now:  Going through the trans-abdominal cerclage (TAC) surgery in July. It's going to hurt and I just realized the strongest pain meds I can take is Tylenol. There is a 2 week recovery period. It will be worth it though! I will do anything to protect these babies.

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? Tomorrow is the 6 month angelversary for Max and Molly. They've been on my mind more than ever.

Carolee

How many weeks Pg are you? 13w4d

Your Pg journey thus far: hard so far...I worry about every little thing.

Any big milestones coming up?  I just hit 2nd tri and am hoping to schedule our anatomy scan soon.

Biggest joy of being Pg right now: actually being pregnant...We were told we had less than a 1% chance of conceiving on our own.

Biggest fear of being Pg right now:  experiencing another loss

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? I just wonder if I will be able to enjoy this pregnancy at all...I have minutes where I'm happy, and then lots of times where I'm consumed with anxiety. 

littlepenguin2012

Hi Ladies- It is so nice to see so many of us here.  I'll admit that I haven't been around much lately, getting close to the 6 month mark and being pregnant again has taken a bigger toll that I anticipated.  

 How many weeks Pg are you? 12 weeks 5 days

Your Pg journey thus far:  Very anxious and trying not to be stressed, dealing with doctors and the high risk label a lot.

Any big milestones coming up? We just did the NT scan this week, it was comforting to see baby on the screen, but also bittersweet since the tech made comments that were very similar to last time (such an active baby! you'll definitely have your hands full with this one!)  

Biggest joy of being Pg right now: Just trying to take it day by day and remember that this baby deserves all the things we did the last time, even though we are worried.  I bought a onesie while I was out of town recently since I bought one last year for our first one.  I don't want this kiddo to feel like they aren't as important as the first one or that we didn't celebrate this pregnancy as much.

Biggest fear of being Pg right now:  Having another loss, facing another bout of really severe pre-e and HELLP, my own health, possibility of another NICU experience

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?  We finally told a few people.  Everyone was supportive and very kind, even though I felt like everyone would think we were nuts.