Does anyone suffer from this? I really feel like I am going crazy. My DH and I were trying for a baby for over a year. He was told he was infertile, but we kept trying. Finally we just gave up and excepted it wasn't going to happen. Well a month later we got pregnant. I was happy, for the first week or two. Now that I am almost 9 weeks along, I am dreading everything. I can't pretend to even be happy. I feel like a terrible, selfish parent. I keep thinking of how my life is going to change, my body is going to change, the pain of labor, how I just want to responsible for myself. My DH is a great man, but he doesn't know how to help me. All I do is try and sleep, but I can't sleep, some days I eat too much other days not enough. I feel lost and out of control, some days I even want to hurt myself (but I don't). I was diagnosed manic depressive as a teen, but with medication and therapy I recovered within a year. But this feels similiar, and I know I need help. I have an apt on tuesday with the dr to discuss this all. But please someone tell me I'm not crazy. That I'm not the only mother who doesn't feel they want thier child. =...( I want to love my baby.