Sad and looking to join this board...

CEOwife

We said goodbye to our baby boy, Isaac, who was born sleeping at 21wks3don May 31, 2012. 


I am just so heartbroken. I didn't know pain could feel like this. I am trying to remain guiltless in knowing this is nothing that we deliberately did but I am still his Mama and wanted to give him life. It all happened SO fast, I still need to process. We have been working very closely with counselors to get through this horrific time.
We planted the flowers in our front garden just hours before we got the news about Isaac being so ill. We are having him cremated and will be placing him in the corner of the garden as our little place. It is all so fresh but we talk about planting the flowers annually to remember him
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We did get preliminary tests back from our amnio the same day that he went to sleepEverything on the first read was normal. That was only 1 of 4 tests. The rest will take 4-6 weeks. Normal is good for future....but for now I just want answers!

We spent some time together last night looking at his hand and foot prints. He was just SO perfect. We chose not to hold or see him after delivery because of the many complications. Speaking with counselors and doctors, they did not think it was the best idea to hold him. Having carried him for 21w3d and having his hand and foot prints still makes it so real to us and I can remember him as perfect as I want. He was a very loved boy. DH and I are very eager to start our family, as Isaac was our first.  I am 26 and he is 28 so we certainly have plenty of time.  I hope to find real support on this board as we move forward in our grieving. 

dandywarhol

So very sorry to have to welcome you here.  Nothing in life prepares you for the pain, sadness, guilt, and grief that accompany the loss of a child.  I'm glad that you have the support of some counselors to help you through the loss of little Isaac.  The women of this board are very supportive.  I hope we can help you find some peace.  Please know that nothing that you feel is wrong.  There is no "right" way to grieve.  Do whatever you must do to get through the next minute, hour, or day. 

tuscanbride2007

I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet boy, Isaac. I hope you find comfort here. All of us have different stories and different circumstances, but we all know what it is like to lose a child. Please be gentle with yourself. The first few weeks are very hard.

((HUGS TO YOU))

jbranden12

I'm so sorry for the loss of your sweet Isaac. My husband and I lost our first, our daughter Patricia, at 31 weeks just over two months ago. She was perfect and all tests came back normal. I understand the need to want answers, but it is comforting for me to know that there was nothing anyone could have done to see this coming or save her. I'm sad to welcome you here. ((hugs))

Heatherhah

Hello and unfortunately welcome . I hate it when a new mommy or daddy have to come here it breaks my heart. I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet little boy Isaac. We are all here for you if you need anything please ask away we are all here for you!! Huge hugs to you!!

Heather

Petunia844

I didn't post often over there because I've always been more comfortable on the loss boards, but I lurk and saw your post on the October board.  My heart breaks for you, I'm so sorry for your loss of sweet Isaac.  As others have said, we all unfortunately know what you are going through, never hesitate to ask questions or just vent.  I hope you're able to find some comfort here amongst friends.

foxxy1

I'm so, so sorry to hear about the passing of your sweet Issac. Please know you're among friends here and there's no judgment. You can be yourself here.

 

BootsOrHearts

I am so sorry for you hun. I remember your previous posts and I know you've been having struggles with this pregnancy for a while, I just can't even imagine what you've been going through this whole time. Even though you knew there were problems, you've been trying to stay positive and hope for the best so it must be a shock to have it come to an end.

If you want to chat, please let me know. Although my circumstances were different, the outcome was the same and I know the hell that you are going through right now.

Please reach ouf if there's anything I can do! 

lhakers

dandywarhol:

So very sorry to have to welcome you here.  Nothing in life prepares you for the pain, sadness, guilt, and grief that accompany the loss of a child.  I'm glad that you have the support of some counselors to help you through the loss of little Isaac.  The women of this board are very supportive.  I hope we can help you find some peace.  Please know that nothing that you feel is wrong.  There is no "right" way to grieve.  Do whatever you must do to get through the next minute, hour, or day. 

This.  So sorry for the loss of your son.  We are all here with you.

mdluv21

I am so very sorry for your loss.  Be kind to yourself right now.  ((hugs))

cherrycobbler

I'm so sorry for the loss of your sweet little Isaac.  I hope that you are able to find some support among the amazing women on this board.  Much love and (hugs) to you and your family during this difficult time.

whiteroses05

tuscanbride2007:

I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet boy, Isaac. I hope you find comfort here. All of us have different stories and different circumstances, but we all know what it is like to lose a child. Please be gentle with yourself. The first few weeks are very hard.

((HUGS TO YOU))

What tuscan said here is true. However no matter the different circumstances in one way or another we have experience something similar. I think it was said to me the best after we lost our lo at 21 weeks is that your emotions are like a rollercoaster. You will have some good days and some bad days but through it all we all are here to support you. Feel free to post as much or as little as you need. I can say these ladies are all great listeners if nothing else and a wonderful support system!! T&P are with you and your H.

tubbsy32

I am so sorry for the loss of your baby boy. I wish none of us have gone through this. I find tremendous amounts of support here and I hope you will too; although I am sorry that you had to join us. ((HUGS))

krysiahamaty

So very sorry for your loss of your precious Isaac and I hate to welcome you here. I hope you find some comfort and support on this board. HUGS.

Carolee

I'm so sorry for the loss of your sweet Isaac, and I'm sad you're here, but welcome.  This group has given me so much support and love throughout my journey, and I hope you will find the same comfort here.

nuttycoconut

I'm so sorry for the loss of your sweet baby Isaac. You are in my thoughts and prayers! I'm so glad that you found this board but so very sorry you have to be here.