Drowning

klbowie

I feel like I am drowning today!  It just seems there is a dark cloud following me around today.  Everything is upsetting me from no motivation at work, to feeling as if I don?t fit in at this board, to me and my H just existing in the same house, to no one really wanting to celebrate my birthday with me.  I feel like I am completely invisible to everyone and I do not know why.  I have a feeling much of this is just in my head and not really what everyone else is feeling but I cannot get past feeling like a victim today.  Most days have been really good, but today I feel horrible.  Any suggestions of snapping out of this?  I just do not know what to do today.  I am honestly scaring myself a little with how dark I feel.  Thanks for listening.   

iheartcoffee

There must be something in the air/moon/weather whatever. It seems like everyone around here, including me, are in a funk! Im sorry you feel this way. Our hormones are crazy and its probably all in our head =( Good luck getting out of the funk, it can have a good grip sometimes! Just punch it in the throat. =/

LSzwaya

I totally get all of that. I have completely felt the same way the last few weeks. Hang in there. We're here for you! 

shanrob

We've all been there, and there aren't words to describe how tough it is.  Just try to focus on getting through today, and know that tomorrow has the possibility to be one of the good days.  And of course, if you feel totally out of control and unable to get out of that pit, don't let it last too long without getting some help for yourself.  You deserve it.

krisztina33

I felt the same way yesterday!! No idea what came over me.  The good news I have for you is that today was 110% better!  Some days are just really rough and as simplistic as that sounds, that is how I make sense of it in my head.

I went to bed early and just vowed to have a better day "tomorrow".  Sometimes that works, sometimes it doesn't.  But i def agree with PP that acknowledging it is a huge part of the battle.

Hope tomorrow is better for you!

((hugs)) 

ct103

I could have written this exact post two days ago. I spent the whole day choking back tears, wondering if I would ever feel like myself again. I'm happy to report that today I feel great, and I really think the same will be true for you!

Is today your b-day? That may have been your trigger. You probably pictured yourself pg and happy on your b-day. I discovered the reason I was so down two days ago was because it was DH's b-day and I was so looking forward to celebrating with him while hugely pg. It just sucks. No one should ever have to go through this.

I would like to wish you a happy birthday. Please remember that you are not alone and that dark days DO pass. (((Hugs)))

iheartcoffee

ncchnat:

I'm sorry you're feeling so down right now. We all go through dark phases. It's the nature of grieivng. If you are scared though, I would suggest finding someone to talk to. Maybe a therapist or just a really good friend. Sometimes getting everything out is the best way to move forward. If you don't want to talk to anyone, write it all down. Writing in my journal has been my biggest source of relief. You can write all your thoughts without being afraid of being judged.

HUGS!

I love that cat!! Makes me want to go hug my penguin stuffy.

And I agree, I have a small journal that I will jot stuff down as needed and it does help for that exact reason, I don't have to worry about saying the wrong thing or being judged.  

BootsOrHearts

You're not invisible to us, we appreciate you!!!! Big hugs!

Laurakat81

(((BIG HUGS)))

I hate that you're feeling so down and unappreciated. I truly hope that things are better soon!

klbowie

ct103:

Is today your b-day? That may have been your trigger. You probably pictured yourself pg and happy on your b-day. I discovered the reason I was so down two days ago was because it was DH's b-day and I was so looking forward to celebrating with him while hugely pg. It just sucks. No one should ever have to go through this.

I would like to wish you a happy birthday. Please remember that you are not alone and that dark days DO pass. (((Hugs)))

Thanks Ladies!! I hope tomorrow will be better.  (Am sure it will)  Today just took me by surprise.  I really thought I was healing up pretty well and then today hit and I am not where I thougth I was.  Other then The first few days I found out I was miscarrying, I have not felt this bad!  This grieving process is weird and sneaks up on you. 

Today is not my birthday, it was last week.  It kinda flew under the radar this year because of everything and then my D&C was scheduled for the next day.  This may sound selfish, but I didn't get any presents from any one other then my husband and mom.  (Nothing from my brother, sister, or dad) We usually go all out for eachother. 

And I was really looking forward to being pregnant on my birthday.  I should had been finding out the sex of my precious poppy, not having a D&C (almost two months after the start of the miscarraige)!! Thank you for the birthday wish.

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DaisyZH

I'm so sorry that you're having a tough time.  This whole process sucks, and I hate that any of us have to be here and go through it.

 Happy belated birthday, I'm sorry people didn't celebrate.  That always hurts, no matter what the circumstances are.  (( Hugs ))

lsuhoneybadger

(((((HUGS))))  I'm so sorry you are having a bad day.  Please know that it *does* happen from time to time but we're here whenever you need to talk.