Almost 8 months ago and rainbow mentioned

Heatherhah

Where has the time gone? I miss her so much it sucks that she has to be gone. Why does this have to happen to people. Babies aren't suppose to die they are suppose to out live their parents. Why is the question that I can't stop asking myself. I am pregnant with my rainbow but it is so hard I hope and pray this baby comes and stays with us but I am terrified all the time. I am scared out of my mind. It doesn't make me miss her any less that is for sure.  How come this is our lives? I wish I could get the answers I need. I am so sorry for all of us it hurts me so much. My heart breaks for all of you ladies!! I know your pain.

Heather

jbranden12

I'm sorry Heather. So much of what you wrote I am thinking every moment. How come this happens to people who want their babies so badly? Patricia was the first grandchild on both sides and we all wanted her so much. Why did this have to happen? Why do we have to have this grief for the rest of our lives? I don't want this new life. I do believe that we will eventually have a rainbow baby who will bring us joy, but it won't take away the pain of losing her. ((hugs))

tuscanbride2007

I am in total agreement with you, Heather. I don't understand why anyone of us has to endure the heart wrenching pain of losing a child. I feel like I was so naive to think that you couldn't lose your child when they were considered "full term." I can only imagine the feelings I am going to have if we get pregnant with our rainbow baby. Big hugs to you!

weaslewam

Thank you for sharing your story. Unfortunately I'm a new member to this board and love that you guys use the term "rainbow". I wish you the best

weddedwife

I agree with all of this, Heather. It doesn't hurt any less, you just make room for the pain. I too am pg w my rainbow and it doesn't fix anything or make the pain any less.