I think I'm losing it....

christy2125

So I am 5dp5dt today and I am officially losing my mind.... Not only am I having to stop myself from POAS I am obsessively searching the Internet for anything and everything... I am listing symptoms on google and trying to get info of BFPs. I think this time I am more crazy during this IVF because I know it's our last shot. No frosties stored away... Nothing plus last cycle when we transferredthe quality was really bad and we knew that it probably wouldn't work. Sorry for the vent but I have no where else to post this and I am going batty.... I may break down and POAS tonight....

lady_chance_99

If its any consolation I always lose my mind about day 10 of the tww... GL

Lacyj67

I'm sorry you arE feeling this way. I'm also 5dp3dt and it's my first ivf so I'm really nervous about what to expect. Only 7 more days till we should know so just focus on the end result being your good news at last!!! 

firesiren

Ok.  Take a deep breath.  I've already searched the internet and it confuses me more.  And the POAS thing...   It's evil.  My beta is Friday and we transferred 5/13.  I think they should issue xanax with the PIO.  Hang in there!!! 

crt0323

I have a confession. I POAS this morning, but not fmu and it was of course a BFN. I'm also 5dt3dt. It's driving me crazy. My beta is until June 1. So I'm going to go through a lot of hpts before then. Good luck!

Whales124

I'm right there with you!  I am getting crazier as time goes on.  I am fighting the urge to POAS on Thursday, that will be 5dp5dt and it is also my husband's birthday.  IF is so unfair to make us crazy this way!

christy2125

Thank you ladies, I got home and my hubby cooked me the meal I was craving. He also hid all my HPT's and said I'm not allowed to get them back until Thursday night. he knows me too well. I think part of my problem is I'm soooo emotional! I swear I am about to cry every time a pen drops! And of course I don't know if it's the Progestrone or a symptom so of course I'm googling that... Lol my hubby threatened to take away my phone and computer if I didn't stop googling possible symptoms every two min.! Thank you everyone for your support, I know this tww is killer for us all, I just had a mini breakdown at work today... I think I'm better.... For now

christy2125

firesiren:

Ok.  Take a deep breath.  I've already searched the internet and it confuses me more.  And the POAS thing...   It's evil.  My beta is Friday and we transferred 5/13.  I think they should issue xanax with the PIO.  Hang in there!!! 

 

This. I think they should just mix the Xanax in with all the other drugs so we get a nice steady supply to keep us sane throughout this whole process. And your right POAS is evil I only wish it wasn't do tempting! Thanks!!