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Feel stupid and angry at myself (NIFR)

So last week there was a really bad accident 2 miles from my house and the woman got killed instantly (drunk driver) and her son who is 8 is in an induced sleep.

Didn't put anything together but just found out today that the woman was a person who I see few times a week at this little Italian store. I went into the store and started crying with her good friend and they thought I knew. I feel so stupid that I forgot her name....seriously? I've been going in there for yrs. How is that effin possible? I would so have gone to the funeral home. Then I'm upset because my friend,her daughter is in same class as boy,could of mentioned to me that she worked at the store that I shop in for work. Ugh...I've been crying all day. This really hit me hard.

I'm just embarrassed I didn't put two and two together...unbelievable :( Just venting..thanks

 

ME:46 MH:44 DE IVF 2014
Met with RE 4/11. 2 IUI's BFN. DE best option. Switched clinics to do "shared" program. Had to retake all tests and a mamm that put me behind and then on a DE waiting list for 12 months. Picked a donor!! (10/13/13) Got matched. Estimated transfer in December. After 2.5 years of patiently waiting I will finally cycle....can hardly believe it. DE cycle got cancelled. One of her tests came back positive.  Waiting for another donor. Donor picked!! (1/18/14)

DE IVF #1 (4/26) BFN  DE FET #1 (6/4) BFP! Beta 1=339 Beta 2=852 Beta 3=9957 EDD 2/22/15!!


 

 

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Re: Feel stupid and angry at myself (NIFR)

  • I'm sorry!  ((hugs)) 
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  • Thanks :(

    I just can't get her out of my head. I saw her the day before accident and she just got engaged..ugh. Me pmsing is probably not helping either.

    ME:46 MH:44 DE IVF 2014
    Met with RE 4/11. 2 IUI's BFN. DE best option. Switched clinics to do "shared" program. Had to retake all tests and a mamm that put me behind and then on a DE waiting list for 12 months. Picked a donor!! (10/13/13) Got matched. Estimated transfer in December. After 2.5 years of patiently waiting I will finally cycle....can hardly believe it. DE cycle got cancelled. One of her tests came back positive.  Waiting for another donor. Donor picked!! (1/18/14)

    DE IVF #1 (4/26) BFN  DE FET #1 (6/4) BFP! Beta 1=339 Beta 2=852 Beta 3=9957 EDD 2/22/15!!


     

     

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  • That never helps!  It's hard to lose people unexpectedly like that.  It's hard when you have warning too though.  I'm having a rough day today myself.  A dear friend of mine passed away last month.  Today would've been her 40th birthday.  :(
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  • Aww...hugs to you :(  That's so sad.

    ME:46 MH:44 DE IVF 2014
    Met with RE 4/11. 2 IUI's BFN. DE best option. Switched clinics to do "shared" program. Had to retake all tests and a mamm that put me behind and then on a DE waiting list for 12 months. Picked a donor!! (10/13/13) Got matched. Estimated transfer in December. After 2.5 years of patiently waiting I will finally cycle....can hardly believe it. DE cycle got cancelled. One of her tests came back positive.  Waiting for another donor. Donor picked!! (1/18/14)

    DE IVF #1 (4/26) BFN  DE FET #1 (6/4) BFP! Beta 1=339 Beta 2=852 Beta 3=9957 EDD 2/22/15!!


     

     

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    So sad!  I'm so sorry.

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  • Hello miss bubs :)  I have to say I have another tour at camp bow bow tomorrow!

    ME:46 MH:44 DE IVF 2014
    Met with RE 4/11. 2 IUI's BFN. DE best option. Switched clinics to do "shared" program. Had to retake all tests and a mamm that put me behind and then on a DE waiting list for 12 months. Picked a donor!! (10/13/13) Got matched. Estimated transfer in December. After 2.5 years of patiently waiting I will finally cycle....can hardly believe it. DE cycle got cancelled. One of her tests came back positive.  Waiting for another donor. Donor picked!! (1/18/14)

    DE IVF #1 (4/26) BFN  DE FET #1 (6/4) BFP! Beta 1=339 Beta 2=852 Beta 3=9957 EDD 2/22/15!!


     

     

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  • oh...hopefully I wont cry at this appt...crazy psycho me...haha. By the time I called you I stopped!

    ME:46 MH:44 DE IVF 2014
    Met with RE 4/11. 2 IUI's BFN. DE best option. Switched clinics to do "shared" program. Had to retake all tests and a mamm that put me behind and then on a DE waiting list for 12 months. Picked a donor!! (10/13/13) Got matched. Estimated transfer in December. After 2.5 years of patiently waiting I will finally cycle....can hardly believe it. DE cycle got cancelled. One of her tests came back positive.  Waiting for another donor. Donor picked!! (1/18/14)

    DE IVF #1 (4/26) BFN  DE FET #1 (6/4) BFP! Beta 1=339 Beta 2=852 Beta 3=9957 EDD 2/22/15!!


     

     

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  • That's so sad.  What a tragedy.  :(  Don't beat yourself up.  It's easy to miss things - especially when IF is occupying your life.
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  • I am so sorry for you.  I would not know the names of anyone that works in the Italian store that I go to and they even go to the same church as me. Don't be embarrassed.
    BFP on IVF #2 6/29/2012. Beta #1 7/3 = 522; Beta #2 = 1180; Beta #3 = 6491 image BabyFruit Ticker
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