Introduction

meliebean · May 2012

So I'm Melanie. My fiance and I have a soon to be 3 year old son and just after Christmas we decided to ttc #2. With our son it was so easy, first month and we were pregnant. We assumed it would be the same this time. I stopped taking the pill and since then my once regular cycles (even before my son when I wasnt on bcp) started going out of whack. I went from 29 days up to 34 days. 17 day average LP. I used to be 28 days and 14 LP. After a couple of months we decided to use OPK's. We got pregnant right away. But I didnt know. Around 10dpo I started bleeding. Just lightly, and pink. I thought my period had started early 2 days later it stopped. A few of my NFP gurus told me to test and to my utter surprise it was +. The next day the bleeding started again. By then it was the weekend so I called my doc Monday morning and was sent for blood tests. It came back positive, but very low, the pregnancy tests were coming back fainter and fainter so when I really started bleeding I already knew the results of my second round of blood tests which confirmed a miscarriage. I wasnt far along 5 weeks when I got the final blood tests but it was still rough. My doc said that even though this was our first loss she will be following us closely next pregnancy, extra appointments, extra ultrasounds (in Canada you usually only get 1 maybe 2 unless medically needed). I found out a week later that the medications I'm on for my bipolar disorder and sleep disorder have a low risk of miscarriage so I stopped those, and that is also partly why my doc wants me in there more. We got the go ahead to ttc right away since my body knew what to do and no medical intervention was necessary. Jonathan has preferred to act as if it didnt happen so I have been relying on my bff dylan (who is looking forward to being a godfather so he's insanely supportive) but its still stressful with my son I wasn't ever worried, now all I'm going to do is worry next time.

EKGibs · May 2012

so sorry for your loss. welcome to the board. hope your stay is short & sweet!

HopingforChange · May 2012

I am so sorry for your loss. Sometimes, men just don't know how to vocalize their grief. They also just don't experience the loss in the same way that we do. It's much closer to home for women. Maybe try to talk to your DH about how you are feeling and how his silence is hurting. I am sure that isn't his intention and he's just overwhelmed. We are here to listen, and we hope your stay is short. Thoughts and prayers to you.

AquaFlowers · May 2012

Welcome! I'm so sorry for your loss.

DaisyZH · May 2012

I am so sorry for your loss! Welcome to the board, I hope your stay here is short and sweet.

iheartcoffee · May 2012

I am so sorry about your loss. That is one of the hardest things about TTCAL is that the joy of that BFP is always bittersweet. You are super excited to be pregnant but you worry more because you know first hand what can happen and how it feels. That is one thing that makes me so angry is that instead of complete joy when we all finally get our BFP we will be scared to death. Ugh, sorry I think this turned into a rant. I am sorry that you have to be here and I am sorry for your loss, but Welcome! =/