Intro (sorry so long)

whiteroses05 · May 2012

Some of you may know me from the loss board but for some of you that don't I wanted to introduce myself. I been lurking here every once and awhile. I feel I need to come out of the shadows and tell my story.

In March my husband and I were excited to go to our 20 week appointment to see what we were having!! It was a constant thing with husband and I teasing each other about what we were having. Never would we of thought that something like this would of happened to us, however I dont think any of us on this board would. The doctor came back into room to start our ultrasound and I will never forget how the baby looked on the ultra sound or the fact that the doctor turned to me and applogizing to me. She said that there was something wrong with the baby, but she wasnt sure what it was. She hugged me and then rushed out of the room. She came back with information for the hospital she was sending to find out more. We drove to the hospital with fear and hope. We had another ultra sound which revealed our worse fears. The baby's bladder was in larged which was cause by obstructon. It was the worst they have ever seen and the doctor said that the baby had no fluid around him or her. He said he was sorry but being that I was 20 weeks there was nothing he could do but have us wait. We were asked to come back at 21 weeks to see how things have progressed. So at 21 weeks we went back to find out the heartbeat had stopped and referred us to an out paticient clinic where they performed and D&E. My husband and I never got to hold or now what we had, or even name our little angel.

My husband and I are going to start trying after our vacation in July. Which brings me here to this board. Even though we didn't loose our little one that long ago I am ready to try again. I will miss my baby I carried close to my heart for 21 weeks but still really want to start a family. I currently not taking the pill however just trying to get my body prepared for the up coming months. Does anyone have any advice for me on how to do this? July also was a time frame my husband and I agreed on for us both to be healthly enough to go done this road again. We didn't really try any methods last time. I just afraid it might not be this easy again and I will end up disappointed. Not just disappointed but how being pregnant again will be like. I mean I am excited about the thought but cant help having these questions. So any advice is welcome!!

I look forward to talking to you all about your journeys. I have found so much comfort on the loss board and hope to find that here too. Good luck to you all on this journey and I am sorry for all your losses!!

kbow213 · May 2012

((hugs)) just wanted to say I'm so sorry for your loss. Best wishes on TTC.

DaisyZH · May 2012

I am so so sorry for your loss. Welcome to the board, I hope you can find comfort with us and that your stay is short and sweet.

As far as preparing to TTC again I don't really have much advice except to really give yourself time to heal emotionally and physically. Be gentle with yourself and take good care of yourself. ((Hugs))

iheartcoffee · May 2012

Oh my goodness, I am so very sorry for your loss. I can not imagine. I just can not imagine! (((HUGS))) to you.

baby&thesea · May 2012

I am so sorry for your loss. I don't have much advice, but I just wanted to say that I hope you find the support you need here.

killian09 · May 2012

I'm so sorry for your loss. Welcome to the board. I hope you find some comfort here.

ktsnshn · May 2012

I am so sorry for your loss. My only advice to you is to try to take as good of care of yourself as possible for the next few months. Remember to drink lots of water and take your PNVs. I hope your time here is short and sweet. Welcome.

whiteroses05 · May 2012

Thank you all for your support! I did have my first AF earlier this month so we will see what happens from here. One step at a time....which I have to say is not one of my strong points which is patience. Something I have been having to work on through this whole process. Thank you again.

MeganS313 · May 2012

I am soo sorry for your loss. I hope you feel welcome here and are able to give and get support like we need at this time.
I agree with PP...time to grieve and heal emotionally is important. I had no troubles getting pregnant with either of my babies, but am preparing myself for trouble after this loss just in case...hopefully we can both be pleasantly suprised.
Welcome to the board. ((hugs))

BootsOrHearts · May 2012

I don't have any specific advice, but wanted to say welcome to the board and I'm sorry for your loss. I went through something similar. I think it's great that you are ready to try again and I wish you the best of luck!

krisztina33 · May 2012

Welcome to the board. I'm so so sorry for your loss. This community has literally held me together when I was losing it so I hope you can find that same comfort and compassion.

((hugs))