Intro-With Vent-(PG mentioned)

Luey22

**I have been a member of the bump longer, just started a new account for a new name.

I was diagnosed with a missed miscarriage on March 15 at 10 weeks 3 days, baby was 7 weeks 3 days. I chose the option to take citotec to induce my miscarriage.

 I thought I had moved on the best I could until this past mothers day when all the emotions came back full fledged. The day before mothers day my SIL had me read a card in front of my entire "in-law" family stating that they were pregnant with their second baby, it took all the strength I had not to drop down and ball in front of everyone! (she just POAS two days ago!) and(they knew about our miscarriage)...and every day since thinking about this has brought me to tears. I know its because of how jealous I am, she had a perfect first pregnancy and now is on to her second, while my first pregnancy ended in miscarriage. To top it off my sister is due this November, so everything she is going through is a reminder as to what I should have already experienced. My SIL will be due in february... and now if we do have the miracle of being pregnant I know everybody will think that I was just jumping on the bandwagon, when I was the first one pregnant to begin with!

 I'm starting to think I'm not as strong as I first thought....hoping to build up my strength and move on from the sadness...again.

GatorBaby2012

Welcome. 

sammer818

Welcome to the board. I'm sorry for your loss.

Rachaeleigh

Sorry for your loss. There isn't anything wrong with how you feel or wanted to react. You're allowed to grieve however you need for however long it lasts. Hugs

DaisyZH

Okay, not to sound mean but what the hell is wrong with your SIL?  That is seriously messed up to make someone that had a loss read a card in front of your in-laws saying that they are pregnant! 

I'm so sorry that they were so incredibly insensitive to you.  Please trust me in that it is not that you are not strong, anyone would have an insanely hard time with that. 

Welcome to the board, I really hope that you can find comfort and support here and that your stay is short and sweet.  (I promise I'm not usually so aggressive I just can't believe that they did that to you!)

ella.mabel

Welcome to the board.  I think most people who have never been through a loss are totally clueless. Your feelings and emotions are totally valid.  You are strong - the fact that you didn't totally lose your sh!t in front of everybody is proof of your strength.  I'm so sorry that she was so insensitive.  ((hugs))

Luey22

Thank you everyone for the sincere thoughts, ecspecially rosie.. you put a smile where there hasn't been one too often!  

I just don't feel that my husband's family understands, his mom had 4 boys-no losses. his oldest brother has 2 children- no losses, now his second brother has one daughter and wife is pregnant, no losses.

Where my family is more supportive, multiple individuals have had losses, and difficulties getting pregnant. Though the ones that are having a hard time getting pregnant keep telling me that at least I can get pregnant, where my remark starts to be, well I can get pregnant, just not sure if I can stay pregnant..and they shut up.

Cried on my way home from work this morning and it felt good!- but hey its the weekend....I'm not in the 2WW... im for sure having a few margaritas!

shellyco

I'm sorry your in-laws were so insensitive to your loss.  People just don't understand the heartbreak until they've been there.  Welcome to the board, and I'm so sorry for your loss.