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dreams where you're PG or have a LO? (dream LOs mentioned)

I've had 2 dreams in the last week where I either had an LO or I was PG.

Last weekend, in my dream, had an LO who was I think a boy (I say this because "he" was in a bluey-aqua romper and I just had a "boy" feeling about "him") and we were outside and I was getting him out of his carseat and it was spring or summer. It was so "normal" in the dream, almost every day.

Last night then I dreamed that I was PG, like full-on-big-belly PG and I was so excited because "it was going to be for real this time" (meaning, it wasn't going to be another loss.) Which is ironic, because it was after all, a dream.

The only time I've had dreams where I'm PG was when I was actually PG before. I also had some nightmare PG dreams then too. And I'm not suggesting any mystical PG-ness or anything or that I am PG, because clearly no, I'm not. I just think it's interesting/weird. It also makes me feel hopeful in some way, knowing that my subconscious is hopeful.

Do you have dreams where you're PG? What are they like?

BzeetyD = 38, Mr. BzeetyD = 44 together 12/02 married 9/08
TTC #1 since 1/10
DX: Unexplained/??? MFI issues

Our lil' lost sparks:
5w3d loss 7/30/10 - EDD March 2011
8w loss 4/15/11 - EDD November 2011
8w3d loss 8/2/12 - EDD March 2013
4w c/p loss 10/29/12 - EDD July 2013

Long story: trying on our own + testing testing testing with 6 rounds of Clomid, more testing, injectables + TI, laparoscopy - one tube blocked, 2 IUIs with Follistim...BFNs.
RPL testing all normal, Karyotyping normal

Moving on to IVF.

IVF #1 April 2012 = BFN, IVF #2 June 2012 = BFP. U/S 7/23 = saw heartbeat but measuring behind. Follow up U/S on 7/30 - no heartbeat. D&C 8/2. Trisomy 12. IVF #3 Oct 2012 = Chemical Pregnancy

Phone consult with CCRM on 12/12/12 - ODWU 1/4/13 - both tubes clear(!) - AFC 24, AMH 3.2, FSH 9.6, LH 5.4, E2 25. DH has high frag rate but improved!
IVF #4 March 2013 CCRM. EP protocol w/ Menopur, Gonal-F & Dexamethasone. ER 3/29 & IMSI, PICSI. 43R 13M 10F 6blasts bio'd. CCS testing reveals 3 normals!!!
FET 5/31/13 of 1 4AA blast - thawed and expanded. 4dp5dt BFP.
Beta 9dp5dt = 181, 11dp5dt = 427. 1st u/s showed a healthy heartbeat! EDD 2/16/14

After 4 years of hoping and heartbreak, our sweet little bean was born on 2/19/14
We are so in love with her.

"I'm not telling you it's going to be easy, I'm telling you it's going to be worth it."

Everybody is welcome!!!

Re: dreams where you're PG or have a LO? (dream LOs mentioned)

  • ever since i was in high school and not even thinking into my future i've had dreams that i'm a mother of twins - boy and a girl. in every dream i have the boys in my arms while the girl is either in a stroller or somebody else's arms. i keep an eye on my girl but i'm very protective of my baby boy because he's sick or something.

    the day we found out we would have to go through IVF my DH said we have to transfer two and see if my dream of 10+ years comes true. 

    Anniversary
    Me: 26 DH: 34
    MFI due to testicular cancer (but he's a champ!)
    IVF with ICSI thanks to TESE
    6/5/12 WE'RE PREGNANT!

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  • BzeetyDBzeetyD member
    imagedalmatinka77:

    ever since i was in high school and not even thinking into my future i've had dreams that i'm a mother of twins - boy and a girl. in every dream i have the boys in my arms while the girl is either in a stroller or somebody else's arms. i keep an eye on my girl but i'm very protective of my baby boy because he's sick or something.

    the day we found out we would have to go through IVF my DH said we have to transfer two and see if my dream of 10+ years comes true. 

    Hope your dream comes true but with 2 healthy LOs!

    BzeetyD = 38, Mr. BzeetyD = 44 together 12/02 married 9/08
    TTC #1 since 1/10
    DX: Unexplained/??? MFI issues

    Our lil' lost sparks:
    5w3d loss 7/30/10 - EDD March 2011
    8w loss 4/15/11 - EDD November 2011
    8w3d loss 8/2/12 - EDD March 2013
    4w c/p loss 10/29/12 - EDD July 2013

    Long story: trying on our own + testing testing testing with 6 rounds of Clomid, more testing, injectables + TI, laparoscopy - one tube blocked, 2 IUIs with Follistim...BFNs.
    RPL testing all normal, Karyotyping normal

    Moving on to IVF.

    IVF #1 April 2012 = BFN, IVF #2 June 2012 = BFP. U/S 7/23 = saw heartbeat but measuring behind. Follow up U/S on 7/30 - no heartbeat. D&C 8/2. Trisomy 12. IVF #3 Oct 2012 = Chemical Pregnancy

    Phone consult with CCRM on 12/12/12 - ODWU 1/4/13 - both tubes clear(!) - AFC 24, AMH 3.2, FSH 9.6, LH 5.4, E2 25. DH has high frag rate but improved!
    IVF #4 March 2013 CCRM. EP protocol w/ Menopur, Gonal-F & Dexamethasone. ER 3/29 & IMSI, PICSI. 43R 13M 10F 6blasts bio'd. CCS testing reveals 3 normals!!!
    FET 5/31/13 of 1 4AA blast - thawed and expanded. 4dp5dt BFP.
    Beta 9dp5dt = 181, 11dp5dt = 427. 1st u/s showed a healthy heartbeat! EDD 2/16/14

    After 4 years of hoping and heartbreak, our sweet little bean was born on 2/19/14
    We are so in love with her.

    "I'm not telling you it's going to be easy, I'm telling you it's going to be worth it."

    Everybody is welcome!!!
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  • mnj05mnj05 member

    I've had a couple in the last month or so. One of them was very strange in that I was in labor and pushing, then all of a sudden I was outside the delivery room, my normal sized body and a surrogate mother brought me my baby.

    Another dream was much like your first one, I was playing with my baby like it was a normal occurence. I don't remember gender or anything else really, just that I had a very normal life surrounding my baby.

    They also make me hopeful, like it's a glance to what my life really will be like one day.

     imagePhotobucket

    TTC #1 since 3/2011
    DX: anovulatory and severe MFI
    DH is a testicular cancer survivor
    IVF#1 w/ICSI lupron, gonal f, ovidrel
    ER 6/15/12 6R 6M 6F! ET 6/20/12
    Beta #1: 154 Beta #2: 509 Beta #3: 7326
    Baby Boy born 3/1/2013
    Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker

    TTC#2: 6/2014 all testing came back normal

    IVF#2 (#1 for LO#2) 9/2014 - 17R 10M 10F 4 blasts frozen on day 6.

    FET #1 10/15/14 - Beta #1: 216  Beta #2: 823


    Baby Boy born 7/10/2015


  • delinodelino member
    I very rarely have dreams that I'm pregnant.  I had one not too long ago.  I was trying to use a doppler, but couldn't find the heartbeat.  I knew that it was too early so I wasn't concerned and I remembered that I had seen the baby in the right spot with a heartbeat on an ultrasound.  It was a peaceful carefree dream...basically the complete opposite of my TTC journey to date.
    3 ectopic pregnancies (EDD's 1/30/12-tube removed, 6/2/12-methotrexate and 10/2/12-methotrexate)
    IVF and Natural FET resulted in BFN's and a hole in our wallets
    Natural BFP #4 on 9/7/12 gave us our miracle on 5/18/13
    Lilypie First Birthday tickers
  • BzeetyDBzeetyD member
    imagemnj05:

    I've had a couple in the last month or so. One of them was very strange in that I was in labor and pushing, then all of a sudden I was outside the delivery room, my normal sized body and a surrogate mother brought me my baby.

    Another dream was much like your first one, I was playing with my baby like it was a normal occurence. I don't remember gender or anything else really, just that I had a very normal life surrounding my baby.

    They also make me hopeful, like it's a glance to what my life really will be like one day.

    It feels nice when it feels unremarkable, because IF I think feels so the opposite with its constant struggles and challenges. It feels nice to feel at peace and just having a good life with a child.

    BzeetyD = 38, Mr. BzeetyD = 44 together 12/02 married 9/08
    TTC #1 since 1/10
    DX: Unexplained/??? MFI issues

    Our lil' lost sparks:
    5w3d loss 7/30/10 - EDD March 2011
    8w loss 4/15/11 - EDD November 2011
    8w3d loss 8/2/12 - EDD March 2013
    4w c/p loss 10/29/12 - EDD July 2013

    Long story: trying on our own + testing testing testing with 6 rounds of Clomid, more testing, injectables + TI, laparoscopy - one tube blocked, 2 IUIs with Follistim...BFNs.
    RPL testing all normal, Karyotyping normal

    Moving on to IVF.

    IVF #1 April 2012 = BFN, IVF #2 June 2012 = BFP. U/S 7/23 = saw heartbeat but measuring behind. Follow up U/S on 7/30 - no heartbeat. D&C 8/2. Trisomy 12. IVF #3 Oct 2012 = Chemical Pregnancy

    Phone consult with CCRM on 12/12/12 - ODWU 1/4/13 - both tubes clear(!) - AFC 24, AMH 3.2, FSH 9.6, LH 5.4, E2 25. DH has high frag rate but improved!
    IVF #4 March 2013 CCRM. EP protocol w/ Menopur, Gonal-F & Dexamethasone. ER 3/29 & IMSI, PICSI. 43R 13M 10F 6blasts bio'd. CCS testing reveals 3 normals!!!
    FET 5/31/13 of 1 4AA blast - thawed and expanded. 4dp5dt BFP.
    Beta 9dp5dt = 181, 11dp5dt = 427. 1st u/s showed a healthy heartbeat! EDD 2/16/14

    After 4 years of hoping and heartbreak, our sweet little bean was born on 2/19/14
    We are so in love with her.

    "I'm not telling you it's going to be easy, I'm telling you it's going to be worth it."

    Everybody is welcome!!!
  • mnj05mnj05 member
    imageBzeetyD:
    imagemnj05:

    I've had a couple in the last month or so. One of them was very strange in that I was in labor and pushing, then all of a sudden I was outside the delivery room, my normal sized body and a surrogate mother brought me my baby.

    Another dream was much like your first one, I was playing with my baby like it was a normal occurence. I don't remember gender or anything else really, just that I had a very normal life surrounding my baby.

    They also make me hopeful, like it's a glance to what my life really will be like one day.

    It feels nice when it feels unremarkable, because IF I think feels so the opposite with its constant struggles and challenges. It feels nice to feel at peace and just having a good life with a child.

    That's exactly what I think. It's like I wouldn't (or shouldn't) have to worry if it'll ever happen, if a pregnancy will go the distance, if there will be any speed bumps in the pregnancy, if the baby will turn out just fine, if delivery is good. All these things I will forever have in my thoughts should just melt away so I can focus on the good that may come, but it's just not that way.

     imagePhotobucket

    TTC #1 since 3/2011
    DX: anovulatory and severe MFI
    DH is a testicular cancer survivor
    IVF#1 w/ICSI lupron, gonal f, ovidrel
    ER 6/15/12 6R 6M 6F! ET 6/20/12
    Beta #1: 154 Beta #2: 509 Beta #3: 7326
    Baby Boy born 3/1/2013
    Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker

    TTC#2: 6/2014 all testing came back normal

    IVF#2 (#1 for LO#2) 9/2014 - 17R 10M 10F 4 blasts frozen on day 6.

    FET #1 10/15/14 - Beta #1: 216  Beta #2: 823


    Baby Boy born 7/10/2015


  • Just last week I dreamt that we adopted a little girl that was around age five. DH and I haven't talked much about adopting quite yet, let alone an older child, and it isn't something I have given much thought myself. In this dream our beautiful adopted daughter was wearing a white dress, and she had blonde hair. Incredibly vivid! She ran over to me, hugged me and called me Mommy. I woke up with the most amazing feeling, and it actually got me thinking about considering older children if we decide to adopt.

    A few months ago I had a dream that I POAS and actually got a positive test for the first time. It was incredibly vivid! I felt so excited to tell DH! We were crying with joy, and it was everything I have been fantasizing about since starting TTC. I woke up, realized it was not real, and wanted to cry.

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    Me: POF/DOR - AMH <0.16, heterozygous c677t MTHFR, insulin resistant and gluten intolerant
    DH: Severe MFI

    12/2/11 - IUI #1- BFN 
    8/1/12 - IVF #1 - Zero response from max stims (600iu intramuscularly)

    My ovaries are just for decoration

    12/6/12 - Adopted five embryos that had been frozen for over ten years!
    2/11/13 - DEmbryo FET #1 Thawed four, sadly two didn't survive. Transferred two beautiful blasts. 
    2/16/13 - First BFP of my life @ 6dp5dt! EDD 10/30/13
    3/27/13 - After beta and u/s hell, no heartbeat ever detected. D&C at 9w1d.

    6/5/13 - Adopted four new embryos that had been frozen for seven years!
     
    9/12/13 - DEmbryo FET #2. Thawed and transferred two beautiful blasts
    9/17/13 - BFP @ 5dp6dt! EDD 05/31/14
    9/29/13 - m/c @ 5w1d. :(

    11/19/13 - DEmbryo FET #3. Thawed and transferred one blast from each batch. Wow!
    11/23/13 - BFP @ 4dp6dt! EDD 8/7/13
    Beta #1 @ 13dp6dt - 522  Beta #2 @ 16dp6dt - 1373 
    6w5d ultrasound showed one perfect baby with a beautiful heartbeat of 134bpm!

    Snowflake baby is a girl! 
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  • zazu13zazu13 member

    I dreamed that I had twins years ago, way before TTC or finding out about our IF. It was vivid and real and it stuck with me. If felt very real somehow. I've wondered if it could be a glimpse into the future, but I figured not since twins do not run in our families. Fast forward a few years and my SIL said that she had a very vivid dream that me and DH were in and we had twins (also before she knew about our IF). 

    Now that we are doing IVF, I still wonder if twins are to be part of our future.

     

    I haven't had the twins dream in a long time. The most recent dream I had about being a mother I left the baby in a high chair at McDonalds. Indifferent Not very encouraging...

    Age: 35 TTC since 2005, MFI & DOR 

    IVF #1 Sep '11 - canceled poor response

     IVF #2 Nov '11  8R/8M/4F 3dt x2 - chemical

    IVF #3 April '12  11R/6M/4F 3dt x2 - m/c

    FET #1 Aug 2012  3dt x2 - BFN

    **new RE**

     IVF #4 Jan '13 BFN 11R/6M/6F 5dt x2 - BFN

     IVF #5 July '13 16R/10M/10F 5dt x2 + 1 frostie

    9dp5dt Beta 1 = 344!! 16dp5dt. Beta 2 = 4822 7wk u/s= 2 heartbeats!

    Twin girls! 3/6/14

     

  • imageBzeetyD:
    imagedalmatinka77:

    ever since i was in high school and not even thinking into my future i've had dreams that i'm a mother of twins - boy and a girl. in every dream i have the boys in my arms while the girl is either in a stroller or somebody else's arms. i keep an eye on my girl but i'm very protective of my baby boy because he's sick or something.

    the day we found out we would have to go through IVF my DH said we have to transfer two and see if my dream of 10+ years comes true. 

    Hope your dream comes true but with 2 healthy LOs!


    Haha! DITTO

    Anniversary
    Me: 26 DH: 34
    MFI due to testicular cancer (but he's a champ!)
    IVF with ICSI thanks to TESE
    6/5/12 WE'RE PREGNANT!

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