Messages from Angels

doodlescaboodles

If you've ever wondered if our angels are watching over us...here is a story that might reassure you.

 

I went to work on March 22, 2012 at nearly 20 weeks pregnant like it was just a regular day. Right before I left for home I put in a vacation request slip for a Friday off in May. I picked one at random not really caring, just figuring it would allow me a day to get some baby stuff in order.

 

4 hours later I delivered my twin girls. 6 hours later I required a emergency D & C due to difficulty delivering my placentas. The following weeks were a blur. However, me being me...I felt like I needed to take action. I began working out, eating healthy, trying to get myself back in peak physical form. My body thought other wise. Within 4 days of delivering I was diagnosed with bilateral mastitis. Within 1 week of delivering I was diagnosed with a uterine infection. Nearly 6 weeks later I was still without a period and still having increased vaginal pain, cramps, and just "didn't feel well." After some blood tests it was discovered my Beta Levels were sky high, I was super anemic, and yet another uterine infection had crept up ( maybe even never left!). The Doctor began to worry about possible retained tissue. After a round of failed proverea and weeks of antibiotics, my Doctor scheduled me for a 2nd D&C this Friday...May 18th. The past 3 days I have been so angry, upset, and sad that we are having to go through this again all over. I didn't understand WHY this was happening, hadn't I gone through enough? I was even contemplating canceling the surgery.

 

Today at work....right before I was leaving to go home I saw a familiar vacation request form laying on my desk.

On March 22, 2012 I had requested May 18, 2012 off. The day I lost my girls and received my 1st D &C, I requested off the day I am scheduled to have my 2nd D & C.

I stood there...almost feeling my girls telling me..."its going to be ok. You need to do this to heal. We will be right there with you."

Our angels ARE with us...maybe not in the physical form but they are always lingering and guiding us down this difficult path we are all following.  

BootsOrHearts

I'm so sorry for your loss.  I love the names you chose for your girls.  

It must be like adding insult to injury to have all those lingering issues.  I hope the surgery goes ok and that is the last of it! 

nuttycoconut

I love that Sydney and Mackenzie are looking out for you. They are such sweet angels. ((hugs))

tubbsy32

I hope everything goes well! And you're right our angels are def always with us

((Hugs))

weddedwife

I'm sorry you are having so many complications. I've had mastitis before, as well as retained tissue and they are NO walk in the park. I wish you luck with your d&c, hope they are able to resolve your issues and that you heal quickly. I suspect that once they do this you will begin to feel MUCH better fast. Please keep us posted!

jbranden12

I'm sorry to hear you're still suffering so much. You are really inspiring. I'm glad you were able to get some strength and peace from your precious angels. Will be thinking about you tomorrow.

krysiahamaty

I am so sorry for your loss and the issues that followed. I really like to think our angels are watching over us. Big hugs.

xxswebbxx

HUGS...Thinking of you today.

pb127

Big (((hugs)))) your sweet girls are definitely looking out for their mama.

Hope everything went okay today.