Intro

emyloup

Good afternoon - I have been lurking over the past week or two and wanted to respond to some posts so figured I should do an intro!  I had a missed miscarriage, discovered at a regular check up on 4/10 at around 8-9 weeks.  It was our first pregnancy.  We saw a healthy heartbeat two weeks prior so it was a total shock.  My MFM doctor suspected that it was a molar pregnancy; however after having a D&C on 4/13 and getting the pathology reports back, that was not the case.  Pathology reports showed that our baby girl had an extra chromosome - Trisomy 21. 

As I am sure everyone here can relate to, it has been a very emotional month - one minute I am happy and laughing and the next I am crying.  After receiving the pathology report last week, I am feeling like I am coming to grips with what happened and working on moving forward.  Being high risk - type 1 diabetes since the age of 2 - I was worried that I had done something to cause the miscarriage, even though my diabetes is very well controlled and I was being followed closely by a wonderful MFM team.  I think what has helped me the most the past few days, as strange as this sounds, is my grandmother's passing last week.  My husband and I told her we were expecting a few days before we found out about our loss while she was in hospice care.  She told us we were having a girl.  I know that it is 50/50 chance whether it is a girl or not, but I (sort of) feel at peace with our loss, knowing that our little girl is up in heaven with my grandmother watching her. 

I look forward to getting to know everyone.  Just reading all of your posts and seeing that that what I am going through and feeling is normal has been so helpful already --- so thank you! 

JennOH85

I'm so sorry for your loss, but welcome to the board. I hope you continue to find support and comfort here. ((hugs))

Spruce14

I'm so sorry for the loss of your baby and your grandmother. I hope you find some comfort here, i know it has been a lifesaver for me. ((hugs))

funny bunny

I am so sorry for the loss of your baby, and the loss of your grandma.

Welcome to our board. I hope you have a short sweet stay here.  

ella.mabel

Welcome to the board.  I'm so sorry for the loss of your little girl and also for the loss of your grandmother.  What a devastating time for you to have to deal with both losses.  It was very special that you were able to share your news before her passing.  I'm sure your grandmother is looking after her and taking care of her. Best wishes with your ttcal journey. Take care and ((huge hugs)).

ktsnshn

I am so sorry for your loss. This board is a great place to give and get support. Welcome.

Laurakat81

Welcome and I'm so sorry for your loss. (((hugs)))

I just read your comment on my post below about the juvenile diabetes. I wish I knew what kind of questions to even ask you. But I'm so ignorant to it all right now that I just don't have any! I talked to my SIL about an hour ago and Ella's blood sugar was back up to 430 so they're still fighting it and trying to tweak the insulin. 

Its so scary how quickly it just came on. 

Mmm79

I am so sorry for the loss of your baby and your grandma, but welcome to the board. 

The emotional ups and downs you describe are something a lot of us can relate to, but I have found that coming here really helps.

foxxy1

I'm so sorry for your loss. Welcome to the board. These women are very, very supportive and just a great group! I hope your stay is short and sweet.

panacea05

I'm so sorry for your loss. When I read about your grandmother's prediction, I got goosebumps. That's amazing, and I do think your two loved ones are together right now. ((hugs))

DaisyZH

I'm so sorry for your loss and the loss of your grandma.  I hope you can find comfort here on this board and that your stay is short!!

holly_g13

i'm so sorry for the loss of your LO and your grandmother. Welcome to the board and I hope your stay is short and sweet

shellyco

I'm so sorry for your loss-  but welcome to the board!  

sunsetlove

so sorry for your loss..((HUGS)))

emyloup

Laurakat81:

Welcome and I'm so sorry for your loss. (((hugs)))

I just read your comment on my post below about the juvenile diabetes. I wish I knew what kind of questions to even ask you. But I'm so ignorant to it all right now that I just don't have any! I talked to my SIL about an hour ago and Ella's blood sugar was back up to 430 so they're still fighting it and trying to tweak the insulin. 

Its so scary how quickly it just came on. 

 

I know that at this point it is very overwhelming, so much to learn, lifestyle changes to make, etc. -- but I promise, it will get easier!  I know that I feel very lucky how far long the medical industry has come with new meters to check your blood sugar, insulin pumps and much more since I've been diagnosed and I can only imagine how much advanced the technology will get in years to come.  I would recommend checking out the Juvenile Diabetes Research Foundation chapter closest to you/your niece (www.jdrf.org).   While each chapter offers different things, they all are a great resource center for support and information along with fun events.  Hope your niece is doing well and thinking of your family!

emyloup

Thank you all for the very warm welcome!