well I tried

EKGibs

I was doing ok today so I went to church. bad idea. I didnt even make to the sermon starting. a lady sang a song about mothers. then they handed out a gift to all the mothers & the preacher prayed thanking God for all the mothers & what they do for their children & what they sacrifice. I started thinking about how I desperately tried to keep my baby before I knew it was ectopic with progesterone suppositories. we alway go around & greet each other before church officially starts & my DH asked if I wanted to go home. I said no then began to tear up. he insisted so I left barely making it out the door before I lost it. so here I am crying uncontrollably as I type this with my fur baby trying his best to make me feel better.I WANT MY BABY BACK. I WANT TO BE 25 WEEKS PREGNANT TODAY.

 

killian09

Hugs for you.  You get tons of credit from me for even showing up at that service.  I'm glad your DH was looking out for you; there is no reason to put yourself through more emotional trauma. 

I wish we could have all kept our babies. I would have a one month old in my arms today. 

delino

I'm so sorry.  I wish I could take away your pain (((HUGS)))

Gregermis

(((hugs)))  today is definitely not a day for going to church if you've suffered a loss... or if you've been trying for waaaaaaaay too long.  More ((((hugs))))

EKGibs

Hugs back to all of you. Mothers day has been hard before b/c we've been ttc for 5 years but this one takes the cake.

HopingforChange

I am so sorry, but I am glad your DH was there for you, which helps a little bit.  It just hurts, and all I can say is ((hugs)), and my prayers are with you.

MrsHest09

Thinking of you today. So sorry you had a rough morning.

KDS1987

Huge hugs! I am so sorry. We skipped church today, I didn't think I could handle it. I would like to curl up in a ball until this day is over.

JennOH85

big, giant ((hugs)) to you, dear. I'm proud of you just for having the strength to try going to church today, just the thought makes me feel sick to my stomach. I went to Easter service and it was one of the most brutal hours. From death to new life? That was not what I needed to hear, especially not while surrounded by what seemed like a million babies all in their adorable Easter get-ups. The universe has no mercy sometimes, I swear. Thinking of you and hoping the rest of the day gets better. 

keft514

We made it through church.  I pretty much thought about other stuff the whole time.  DH gave me the stink eye for not singing the hymns, but there was no way I was singing those songs!  

I wish you were 25 weeks pregnant too.  I wish I was 38 weeks pregnant today.

(((hugs))) 

besoul

Huge Hugs.