I should be happy (DS mentioned)

LuckEinLuv

Today my son turns 2 years old. My beautiful, healthy, LIVING son turns 2 and all I can think is that I should have a 2 year old AND a 2 month old. This mothers day is going to suck for me, but differently than all the first time moms. I know that I will be acknowledged as a mother, but to one or two little boys?  Aside from you ladies, who is going to remember my Andrew?  I am sitting at work crying. I am so glad that we decided to have DS birthday party next weekend instead of this one. I want to be able to celebrate him and not have this mothers day cloud hanging over me. Thanks for listening. I had nowhere else that I could vent. 

S.  

tuscanbride2007

I know exactly how you feel. I am very blessed to have my 3 year old DD, but I was also suppose to have a new baby this year as well. Instead, I have a bracelet with both of my daughter's birthstones, one with the first letter of my living daughters name and one with an angel for my angel daughter. This is not how I was suppose to spend this mother's day.

Hugs to you. 

Chels1222

I completely understand.  I look over at my beautiful DD who is two and know that I should  feel happy and bless but there are moments when all it makes me think about is my daughter we lost.  Mother's day falls on the two month mark from when we lost Taylor and it is bitter sweet.  I can't enjoy it like I did because I am missing one of my kids.  *hugs*

karebear57

Happy Birthday to your big boy!

This is just how I feel. I love my boys beyond words. If it weren't for them, I don't know what I'd be doing now. But I'm going to be the only one thinking about Brianna tomorrow, as I am everyday. This Mothers Day is going to suck, kinda. I've got the boys at least. It's different tho b/c we're missing a piece of ourselves. It hurts just as much even though we already have kids. ((Hugs))

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jbranden12

Happy birthday to your DS! I have no other children, but I'm sure it's really tough to feel happy and thankful for one LO and yet so sad for the loss of another. ((hugs))

johnnys june

*hugs*

Logan was my first, but now that I'm pregnant again, one of the girls at work responded to my "happy mother's day" to her with "OH, yeah, Happy Mother's Day to you too.  Even though she's in your belly it still counts."  That comment actually hurt more than I thought.  As I walked out the door I wanted to tell her that I was already a mother.....nearly 2 years before this little girl was conceived.  Logan made me a mother...and yet...I will only ever be known as a mother because of my rainbow baby girl.  

It sucks all around. 

weddedwife

I know how you feel. I do feel happy and VERY blessed to have my DD. but tomorrow will be odd. Will anyone acknowledge my son? I doubt it. I have a son too, not just a daughter. 

jlgraham7

I too know the sting of "supposed to be"s. I lost one of my twin boys during delivery. Hugs and love with you today!