I think I'm leaving (not pg)

pkaren

I think I'm going to take a break from TB. I've been sinking further and further into a funk and I think sperating myself from everyone else's heartbreak might help. I'm just not doing well emotionally. I had to go for BW this am to test my HCG levels. The tech made a comment about "yay pregnancy" and I just shook my head, I didn't want to get into why I was getting this test done. I think that was the last straw and brought up alot of emotions from my mc. It was our 1st anniversary yesterday and my 31st bday is next month which are also adding to the mix of weird emotions.

 I feel stuck; like I'm in the same spot I was in when I came to this board. Everyone is getting AF, TTC and nothing has changed for me. Every week it's getting harder and harder to do check-ins because I have nothing to update.

I luv all of you ladies and care about you so much, but I need to deal with what's going on with me right now. I think about you all so much and trying to give support that I can't just take my mind off of waiting for AF to come and worrying that something is wrong.

I hope this makes sense and nobody is offended. I don't think I can stop myself from checking in once in awhile, because I honestly care how things are going for all of you, but I don't think I will be around very much. I hope you understand. I didn't want to just disappear because I wanted to most of all say THANK YOU, to everyone who has sent me hugs, said kind words, help me hang onto my sanity and just plain cared.

XO

ktsnshn

I am so sorry you are going through a rough patch. I felt like that the whole month of January and a break really helped me refocus. I hope that some time off is good for you. We are here when you need us.

ct103

I'm really sorry to hear you're in a funk, and that your body is being so stubborn. I completely understand if you need to take a step back. Many people have done it, including me. I really hope the time away gives you exactly what you need. When you're ready to come back, we'll be ready to support you again.

funny bunny

I hope this break gives you the mental and emotional rest you need.

We will be here to hug you whenever you need it! 

kwilson158

I hope you find the peace of mind that you are looking for and that the next time you drop in to say hello it is to tell us good news. Good Luck to and I will be thinking about you.  ((HUGS))

andreagb

A break is totally understandable.  We're here if and when you are ready to come back.  Take care of you.

sammer818

I'm sorry you're feeling stuck, but the most important thing is to go take care of you. Best of luck to you!

mom22labs

I totally understand.  Sometimes this board can be addicting and not always in a good way.  I went on vacation for 10 days and didn't check in one time.  And in doing that it really did keep my mind off of my current loss and waiting to TTC.  Best of luck to you.

kiki4

I'm so sorry you are having a hard time. I hope this break is what you need to heal. We will be here for you any time. ((hugs))

kpowers982

Hugs PK.  You absolutely have to put yourself first right now and do what's best for you, and if an extended Bump break is it, so be it.  I hope you do check in from time to time and let us know how your journey goes, because we care about you too.  Sending you lots of love and hoping things even out for you soon!

shellyco

I'm so sorry you are in a rough place right now, and I completely understand about seperating from others' heartbreak here on TB.  I hope you find that you can heal, but know that we are always here for you! 

QuigleyCat1

First of all did that tech miss the day of class when they talked about the fact that bloodwork can be taken for more than just to confirm pregnancy???  I'm so sorry you had to hear that. Totally understandable.  Take the time you need to heal and hopefully you'll be back.  I wish you lots of love and luck sweetie!

killian09

That tech deserved an earful.  I can't believe he/she said that!  

 Taking a break can be for the better.   I did one in Jan/Feb before my 2nd BFP.  Do what you feel like you need.

Hope you get the chance to celebrate your birthday & anniversary!

behapy2day

I completely know how you feel. I love this board, but I often have to tell myself to take a step back and not get sucked into only focusing on my loss and TTC again. Youre so nice to let everyone know about your hiatus.  I hope you start to feel better soon!

Elle jM

You have to be good to you.  We'll be here if/when you decide to return. ((Hugs))

MissRachel621

Sometimes a break is good and can help you feel refreshed.  Take care!

KDS1987

I was where you are a few months ago. Please PM me if you need anything! Hang in there! I will be sending you tons of prayers.

lsuhoneybadger

(((hugs))) hon.  Your health (mental, physical, emotional) is the most important thing.  Take as much time as you need and we will be here when you are ready to come back.

EKGibs

I'm so sorry you are going through this right now.(((hugs)))