Confessions... on a Monday?

JMay

Is it too early in the week to have some confessions?

I'll go first!!!

1. I drank an entire bottle of wine at my anniversary dinner saturday... don't remember the rest of the night but I'm guessing we had fun!

2. Remember the friend who hounds me constantly with questions about her body, and TTC and refuses to learn anything on her own? The same one who is convinced she'll "never" get pregnant, even though she already has 2 DC and has only been trying 3 months?  I was, I hate to admit, relieved when she got her period last week. 

3. My apologies to Randine Lewis, I had melted chocolate and peanut butter for lunch yesterday. Ate it with a spoon.  Damn it was good. 

AprilDrew04

Ha ha ha - I love it.  Wish I had any juicy confessions of my own to share.

Good for you for enjoying your anniversary.  I would have felt the same way about your friend.  And chocolate and peanut butter sounds delicious!

WorkinWeezel

1.  I had a bad weekend and was an emotional mess for most of it.  I have no idea if this is a sign of PMS, early pregnancy hormones, or just the damn hormones surging through my body from the clomid and/or progesterone.

2.  I am still feeling so resentful and envious of people around me pregnant with their 2nd, 3rd, etc... and I am working so hard and getting nothing out of it.  I am tired of feeling that way.  People were happy for me when I was pregnant with DS, the least I can do is feel the same way.

3.  I am trying to be positive, but I am damn scared that my period is coming which is why I haven't POAS yet.  I hate this sh*t.

4.  I wish I could SAH so I could be with DS more and drink in every second with him.  What if I never get this chance again?

JMay

WorkinWeezel:

1.  I had a bad weekend and was an emotional mess for most of it.  I have no idea if this is a sign of PMS, early pregnancy hormones, or just the damn hormones surging through my body from the clomid and/or progesterone.

Ha HA!!!  Laughing with you - the effects of progresterone SUCK!  In the midst of dealing with it now myself!!!

mrs25

1. Today is a bad day for me. I started spotting on CD 20 and I'm convinced that this spotting, whatever it is, is keeping me from getting pregnant. I have a beta test wednesday morning. I dont think I'm pregnant. I've cried 3 times today at work. I want to go home and crawl in bed and hide. 

 

2. There is a woman I work with who is pregnant with her first child after 3 rounds of clomid. She posts on FB all the time about how bad her morning sickness is. I figured she of all people would have the courtesy not to rub it in that she's got morning sickness...we get it! You're pregnant!

 3. I made a chocolate velvet pound cake out of Southern Living Magazine complete with homemade chocolate ganache and ice cream. I've been eating it all weekend, even when I'm not really hungry!   

...wow, that felt good!!! 

WorkinWeezel

JMay:

WorkinWeezel:

1.  I had a bad weekend and was an emotional mess for most of it.  I have no idea if this is a sign of PMS, early pregnancy hormones, or just the damn hormones surging through my body from the clomid and/or progesterone.

Ha HA!!!  Laughing with you - the effects of progresterone SUCK!  In the midst of dealing with it now myself!!!

So that's the culprit?  I was a friggin' mess.  Worst mom ever, worst wife ever, want to cry at the drop of a hat, frustrated by every single thing that happened, thought I would completely lose it.

Hnysckl426

WorkinWeezel:

1.  I had a bad weekend and was an emotional mess for most of it.  I have no idea if this is a sign of PMS, early pregnancy hormones, or just the damn hormones surging through my body from the clomid and/or progesterone.

2.  I am still feeling so resentful and envious of people around me pregnant with their 2nd, 3rd, etc... and I am working so hard and getting nothing out of it.  I am tired of feeling that way.  People were happy for me when I was pregnant with DS, the least I can do is feel the same way.

3.  I am trying to be positive, but I am damn scared that my period is coming which is why I haven't POAS yet.  I hate this sh*t.

4.  I wish I could SAH so I could be with DS more and drink in every second with him.  What if I never get this chance again?

#4 exactly and I never used to want to SAH.  I actually negotiated more time off because of this!

Although I have to admit right now I am happyt we don't have another one/baby.  We are leaving for vacation in two weeks and I am SO happy not have a baby to drag around with us and not have to tote diapers, bottles etc.  DD is going to have so much fun at Disney and secretly I am happy it is just her so we can spoil her!

But then once AF appears I will be back to poor me I want another baby.

lillinzlou

1. I drank tequila, and a lot of it, on Saturday. Oh, and I smokeda cigarette. The tequila was amazing. The cigarette was disgusting.2. I saw a mother screaming at her 2 crying kids at the store thismorning. At that moment, I was happy I only had my one perfectangel sitting in the cart smiling.3. If this cycle doesn't work, I will be doing something wild. More wild than tequila;) Stay tuned!

lillinzlou

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notkateanymore

I feel bad because I'm not more upset about the possibility of never having another one. I would be sad, but I wouldn't be wrecked and it would be closure. I read all the replies here and feel like less of a mom/woman because of it.

And on a less serious note, I drank my weekly allotment of alcohol on Saturday...oops. 

doxiegirl419

Ooh...I like this thread!

1) I go from being so sad and depressed around this time of the month (when I get BFN's and think AF will arrive in the next few days) to being anxious and not able to sleep around O time.Today for instance, I felt  a deep sadness because I got a BFN at 11dpo. But then other times, I'm worrying "oh my gosh...can I handle two? (My DD was extremely high maintenance and didn't sleep through the night til she was 2ish) Will my DD be ok and will she be happy? What if the baby isn't healthy? What if something happens to me in labor?" It makes me feel crazy.

2) I have a glass of wine a few times a week and I don't feel badly about it!

doxiegirl419

KateMW:

I feel bad because I'm not more upset about the possibility of never having another one. I would be sad, but I wouldn't be wrecked and it would be closure. I read all the replies here and feel like less of a mom/woman because of it.

And on a less serious note, I drank my weekly allotment of alcohol on Saturday...oops. 

Kate, you are definitely not less of a woman/mother for feeling that way. I don't think I would be "wrecked" either...I feel so lucky to have DD and honestly a huge part of why we are even trying for another is FOR her. My husband especially feels that she is enough and he doesn't need more...I feel that way too but would also be sad if we couldn't have another and I'd have to come to terms with it. A lot of WHY I would be sad though, is just the loss of her having a sibling, blood nieces and nephews, etc. I know she will be surrounded by family no matter if they are blood related or not but it still bothers me. We're only willing to go so far with this and I will truly be very sad if it doesn't happen....but I'll be ok if that's the outcome. So please...don't feel badly. If anything, try to feel some peace that you know you'll be ok!

SigmundsGirl

I'm with you. There are days that I feel badly because I know we would be fine with just one kid. Obviously, we want another baby and I can picture family vacations in the future and I remember all of the fun times I had with my brother growing up, but then I think about my age (37), the long, sleepless nights with a newborn, and I wonder if I can handle another one if it is high-maintenance like DS was.

Basically, it is a damned if you do, damned if you don't kinda thought.

Oh, and I am on a low-glycemic diet to help with my PCOS, and I have already started planning what I want to eat if/when this cycle is a bust. Then I'll get back on the wagon.

mamak0328

JMay your number 3 sounds oh so good!

My Monday confession is that a coworker of mine just had her baby and (as horrible as it sounds) I found it funny the baby is cranky all the time.  Her entire pregnancy she made it very clear that she did not want a baby and was miserable so I feel it is karma coming back at her!

Oh and she was the one that told me several times to just "get drunk and relax and it will happen".   

 

 

 

 

 

SB524

1. I've had 2 people in 2 days tell me that their #3 baby was a "complete oops". Seriously? After two babies you don't know how they're made? Or oh wait, you're just so fertile that you sneeze and get pregnant.

2. I am so over my husband's job + Masters classes. If he isn't working 50 hrs a week, he's glued to the computer working on his class and DD doesn't understand why she can't go bother daddy when he's home.

3. My Drs can't decide if they want me to keep my uterus & ovaries. Yet they tell me to never get pregnant again. It's such a tease to keep my parts and not be able to 'try'.