So frustrated

mferguson

I'm really new at this but don't exactly know what else to do.

I'm 27 and my husband and I started ttc in September.  It quickly became apparent that I don't ovulate normally.  I went 4 months with out a period and had to be put on medication to force my period to start.  I have Spina Bifida Occulta.  Basically there's an opening in my L5 vertebrae.  My dr. swears this has nothing to do with my issues, but I have my doubts.  I started my first round of Clomid in March.  At the 21 day blood draw my progesterone levels were 3.2.  My dr prescribed the same dosage again this month hoping that my body just needed to be jump started.

I can't really talk to any of my family about any of this.  None of them have had the issues I'm having.  Not many people know that I've been ttc.  Most of them have an inkling, but given that there hasn't been any baby news, I think they've just thought that maybe they were wrong.  In the past couple of weeks there have been a few comments about "if you had a baby, then...."  I know they're not meant to hurt, but they sting.  I want so badly to be a mom and have my own little bundle.  It's killing me that I'm having so many issues. I'm so afraid that I wont be able to have kids.  

I guess I'm hoping that one of you will be going through something similar and can help me through this.  I know you guys will understand where others don't.

ermo515

Im sorry you are having to go through this.The comments from family and friends unfortunately happen...most often its bc they just really dont understand.

Have you had an IF workup yet? I would recommend that. Have you had blood work and ultrasounds to rule out PCOS? People often dont respond to Clomid with PCOS.

 I would say be proactive and try to get answers (by visiting an RE and getting tested for different issues if possible) THey are more specialized.

Also, TTTC may be a better place to get support when you are just starting out. Most of us here are months or years beyond taking Clomid and have moved onto IVF. .

imwithrebel

I'm sorry and hope you get some answers / results soon. We didn't tell anyone for a year and a half, but when it became clear that we would be moving on to the RE, it was easier to tell people the truth than keep making up lies, especially with how much work I have to miss with my RE being so far away. The comments people make can really hurt. If you're uncomfortable being honest, could you blame your condition as a reason that you can't have kids / shouldn't have them right now? It won't stop the initial comment (which will still hurt), but it should make them uncomfortable enough that they won't ask again.

PennyLane26

Sorry you have to be here. I would definitely talk to your OBGyn  about getting bloodwork and an HSG done. It couldnt hurt to have your DH get an SA either. We originally thought our IF was due to my wonky cycles, but it turns out DH has severe MFI. I wouldn't wish that on you, but you should have one done to rule it out. GL!