What if I m/c again? (warning, Debbie Downer post)

s-a-r-a-h

I was watching A Baby Story yesterday and the woman featured on the show has been pregnant seven times. She had a normal first pregnancy, then had three miscarriages, then delivered a stillborn baby at 21 weeks, then had another miscarriage and finally got her second take home baby. I never thought a m/c would happen to me. We got pregnant quickly with DD so I had no reason to think it wouldn't be the same with subsequent pregnancies. Now I feel like a fool for thinking that way. And I'm scared that even though my doc said it probably wouldn't happen again, I'll be among the small percentage of women who who have trouble TTC after having their first child. I know this is probably irrational but I feel like I've been slapped into reality...and it sucks.

Tisharp

I don't think it's irrational.  I think it's a fear that probably a lot of us have.  I know I do, now.  I just had my first pregnancy and first miscarriage, so I'm terrified that I will never have a healthy pregnancy.  We just have to hope for the best.  It does suck.

Laurakat81

It is scary and it does suck. (((hugs)))

baby101010

I think most if not all of us on this board can relate to your post/feelings.... It sucks and its scary-- and normal to have the anxiety and fear that you have after having a loss

Mmm79

It is scary and it does suck.  I never imagined I'd have one m/c, let alone two

Rachaeleigh

yeah, I miss the innocence of not knowing. I don't even think excitement when I hear someone announce their pregnancy early. I think, "are you crazy?!" I'm hopeful to get pregnant when we start trying again but then know I'll be terrified. Ugh!

imwithrebel

I think it's normal to worry about all of the "what if's" when you've suffered a tragedy. It took us 18 months of trying, just to have two losses back to back - both of which were over before I even knew I was pregnant due to incredibly late implantation. I'm worried these were my "chances" and now it will be a long time before it works again. I'm worried it's a sign that yet another thing is wrong with me. I'm worried that I'll never get to experience the true joys of having a positive pregnancy test due to these worries. Unfortunately I think this is part of the process.