Crazy Question.. denial

alexnyc39

Was in the ER on Easter with severe bleeding - 8 hours.  Then 3 more days of lighter bleeding.  Dr. says appears to be full natural miscarriage.  At hospital HCG was 3,700 (at either 5 or 6 weeks pregnant).

1 week later at dr.'s office nothing was seen on ultrasound.  Just perhaps what they thought was a blood clot I still needed to pass.  HCG levels 1 week after hospital - 1,700.

2 week f/u appt. with dr. is Friday for pelvic exam and HCG levels.

This is why I think I am crazy...... I just always have hope...and I think maybe somehow I still am pregnant..perhaps there was a twin.  I know that is INSANE and my symptoms (extreme hunger, happy mood- that was nice, breast soreness) are gone.  But my belly is still all bloated and pouches out wayy too much.  I have been eating light and healthy but still.

Please someone talk some sense into me?  The pregnancy is gone.. I guess maybe Friday's dr. visit just needs to confirm that for me?

Thank you and everyone take extra care~

Laurakat81

I think its completely normal to want to hold on to that hope. (((hugs)))

Just make sure that you are working on trying to accept what has happened. It doesn't mean you're crazy if you're holding on to hope. But you have to be realistic too and work through your grief. Denial is a step in the grieving process for a reason...it is our hearts way of softening the blow until a point where it knows we can take it.

ashleymarie1726

i had an ectopic and still hope by some chance its there...maybe a twin stuck in the fallopian tube...etc. but, my levels went from 7100 to 2200 so i think i'm holding on to nothing. and no more sore breasts, and i've been bleeding for 9 days.