sadly joining the board

mamamiles

hi all... i am sadly joining you all with my first pregnancy and first loss. i began spotting dark brown, very light on 4/6, had an u/s (at a women's center) on 4/9. couldn't find the fetal pole. made an appt for a follow up on 4/23. had my first OB visit on 4/20 and was sent for an u/s. confirmed that no fetal pole was present, and development stopped at 5w2d. i began to miscarry on 4/22. 

emotionally i'm kind of numb. it still hasn't exactly hit me yet. i guess dealing with the physical pain has taken over. still wondering why this happened. i know most likely it's a chromosome defect, but i can't help being really mad. we have been TTC since April 2010.  we were so excited and now all of that has been taken away from us. why us? why now? after so long trying and finally a success? 

and how are we supposed to tell everyone?  the parents and siblings know, and a few close friends are the only ones that know so far. everyone else still is expecting a little turkey to be here. how am i supposed to tell our little world that we lost the little butterball? 

i'm sorry for the rant, but everything kind of just came out. thanks for reading and the future support.  

krisztina33

Sorry you are here.  There is nothing I can say to answer any of your questions about why, and probably nothing I can say to make you feel better.  I'm so so sorry for your loss.  Just know that you are not alone.

As far as telling people, just give yourself time to absorb everything right now.  Maybe enlist DH's help.

<<hugs>>

kelly321

I'm so sorry for your loss.