Stages of Grief - I have definitely hit Anger

ireallywantapug

Juat since yesterday the tears stopped and I've become a psycho biatch. 

I don't know if it's hormones or the simple fact that I cannot believe I was chosen to suffer two years of infertility only to have an ectopic my first pregnancy. 

 Why is it that the people who have trouble have ALL the trouble and the rest of the women seem to sail through life hitting nary a speed bump?

 I miss being pregnant. I miss my horrific morning sickness and five-day headaches. I would have done anything for my Baby and I couldn't. Nothing I could have done would have saved that pregnancy and I hate the universe for putting me in this position. 

I apologize for the bitter rant.....it just had to come out. I hope that keeping nothing in will help me work through this in as healthy a way as is possible given the situation.....it's not helping that while waiting for the methotrexate to fully do its thing I am banned from the gym, or packing up my house for our impending move. All I get to do is sit around and feel all this pain. 

kelly321

I'm so sorry. I can't even imagine what it would be like to have a m/c after 2 years of IF. The anger part is normal, though. I was stuck in it for about 2 weeks and have finally started to come out and be my normal self. Let your DH know that he's not to take anything personally for the next couple of weeks, and I hope you start to heal both emotionally and physically.

Tisharp

I haven't hit anger yet.  But I'm just so sick already of being so sad.  So unbelievably sad.  It's all just awful.  I've said it before and I'll say it again... I REALLY want a fast forward button right now.

katharine25

I'm sad to report, this really isn't a stage that goes away anytime soon.

It's a really awful feeling, just know that it's very natural to feel that way. My only advise is while it's 150% ok to feel this way, it's not a stage that most of society will accept. Find outlets, like here, where you can express the anger and jealousy. Letting it out will help you tremendously more than letting it fester, but make sure those outlets are the right places. 

XV11Star

I am so sorry.  I totally understand your pain and frustration... I wish I had some answers for you. 

geminiways

i'm stuck right in the middle of anger with you...and i just realized it today. i've been really annoyed at work but chalked it up to everyone else being idiots

and have been pretty short with my parents whenever they want to call and just chat..

it's good that we recognize it...but now we just kind of have to get through it i guess! 

southrnbellmeg7

No one persons grief is the same but I can say that I have been in the anger phase for about 2 1/2 weeks now, the fact that I was taking progesterone was not helping at all.  I know right now it may seem that everyone else seems to just skim through life with no troubles at all but sometimes we just don't see what's behind closed doors. 

I am so sorry for your loss & I wish you quick healing and when your ready lots & lots of baby dust.